First of all apologies for my absence over the last couple of weeks. We have had a close family bereavement under the most awful circumstances and my time and attention is needed at home right now. I have also been under the weather and caring for my mother who is still bed ridden.
Once the first week of my quit was out of the way I had a great 7 weeks that followed. It is however fair to say the last 2 weeks have been my most challenging. I now know that my number one smoking trigger is upset and stress. I have found myself several times walking around the house in the small hours of the night deeply wanting a cigarette, one night in particular around 4am had there been any around my quit would not still be intact. I am glad I made the decision not to have any here. Its now my Top Tip.
I admit I have increased use of my ecig during this time, pretty much to the level I was using it week one. Not great but I am still not smoking and given the stress I have been under that will do for me for now. The insomnia is still a regular battle and infact some nights I have had no sleep at all (stress also triggers this).
We have the funeral early next week and some other challenges to resolve but I remain dedicated to my quit. I know I would HATE myself if I gave in and of course it would not resolve any of the current stresses I am under, most likely make them worse.
So my plan is to continue relying on my ecig to get me through next week and then take it from there.
I just wanted to thank a few people for the support I have been given. Particularly Kat, Donna, Sue, Mina, Bluebell, Gemma Lou and of course Debbie and the Freedom Fighters gang. It has meant a lot to me and whilst I haven't been particularly engaging your concern and messages helped me through some horrible days.
I can't promise to be on here every day posting at the moment but I am going to try to get things back to a more normal state over the next week. Positive thoughts would be most welcome