The key to my 28 day success, I believe, is that this is one of the toughest times of my life. I know for some, especially those of you who are reading this in their first week of their quit, this seems ridiculous, surely people would want to smoke more. Stick with me and i'll try and explain.
I don't want to quit, I know its probably taboo to say, but I love smoking, mainly the social aspect of popping out for a fag whilst at the pub, whilst at a gathering or a party and having a good old chat with my smoker friends.
HOWEVER I know I HAVE to quit. I have to quit if I don't want my family to have to deal with the consequences later down the line. I watch as my Nana struggles to walk to the toilet because she can't breathe, I watch her struggle to eat her food because she struggles to breathe, I watch her struggle to breathe when she tries to talk to you. I don't want my grandchildren to have to see me like that. I know that if she had known the consequences when she started smoking at 13 she would not have smoked 20 a day for 65 years. (She quit at the age of 78 but now at 84 it was just too late for her lungs.) She would not want her family to see her in this condition of her own making.
The toughest time of my life - the shock of seeing my Nana deteriorate in such a quick and painful way has made the decision easy for me, I love smoking I just can't and won't do it anymore.
I know everyone quits for different reasons, but I think that forcing yourself to think of the consequences your loved ones will have to face as a result of your smoking makes it easier. I love my family more than I love the cigarettes therefore I will not smoke.
I will continue to get twitchy when I walk past someone who is smoking or when my boyfriend informs me hes been smoking whilst out with friends and knowing he probably has some in his coat pocket. I will not smoke when I am in social situations, when I am nervous about something, before I get on a train, before breakfast, after breakfast, when I have a cup of coffee, when I have an argument, when I am sad, when I am happy, when its beautiful and sunny outside, when I am in a beer garden with a nice cold beer. I will not smoke because somethings in life are more important than the enjoyment I get from cigarettes.
I think I'll always be a smoker, just a smoker who refuses to smoke.
This forum has given me inspiration and I thank all of those who post and well done on your fabulous achievements whether 1 day, 1 week, 1 month or 1 year. And to all those like me, who read this forum but don't really contribute or haven't even signed up but read the posts most days, good luck and do it for your family and friends.