110 Days (I think)

Have I really done this?

Feel a bit strange. at times i feel so great like im on top of the world. at others, i feel so helpless and feel like just getting a pack (whats the big deal).

Im 33 and smoked more or less for the last 20 years or so. Guess my brain is changing now that im not inhaling all those fumes anymore. and so is my body. im not getting heavier but i can see my stomach filling out.

feeling a bit lost and confused but happy at the same time. is this making any sense?

13 Replies

oldestnewest
  • Hi Craig,

    Good to meet you, 110 days is awesome! Glad you found the forum, plenty of support on here and some lovely people :) keep up the good work :) xx

  • Hi there your post made complete sense and I can relate to everything you say. I am 37 and smoked for last 20 years. I have had good and bad days and also put on weight. But I refuse to give in and will not even have one cig.

    Keep going. You have done so well so far!

  • Have I really done this?

    Feel a bit strange. at times i feel so great like im on top of the world. at others, i feel so helpless and feel like just getting a pack (whats the big deal).

    Im 33 and smoked more or less for the last 20 years or so. Guess my brain is changing now that im not inhaling all those fumes anymore. and so is my body. im not getting heavier but i can see my stomach filling out.

    feeling a bit lost and confused but happy at the same time. is this making any sense?

    By the way I think it's perfectly normal... I have given in to those thoughts lots of times... Sure you won't tho :) p.s it is a big deal if u get a pack, you will undo all that hard work! :)

  • Thanks guys. and no, I wouldnt dream of actually going to buy a pack. Its almost like Ive programmed it in my brain that if i do, some huge dragon will spring up and flame me!!!! not gonna take the chance. and like said, if i did smoke now, what would it really solve? nothing.

    I think its just that i used smoking as an emotional crutch for so so many years. and now, when hard days hit, theres nothing to fall back on.. only sweets chocolate and a bottle of wine! its not the same! lol. any ideas?

  • Thanks guys. and no, I wouldnt dream of actually going to buy a pack. Its almost like Ive programmed it in my brain that if i do, some huge dragon will spring up and flame me!!!! not gonna take the chance. and like said, if i did smoke now, what would it really solve? nothing.

    I think its just that i used smoking as an emotional crutch for so so many years. and now, when hard days hit, theres nothing to fall back on.. only sweets chocolate and a bottle of wine! its not the same! lol. any ideas?

    You can fall back on this forum, all like minded people going through the same ups and downs, failing that chocolate and wine is good :)you'll be fine :)

  • Craig, all I can say is that it was my emotional crutch for 47 years. I do not know what it's like to be an adult non smoker (happily a non smoker). But I want that experience before I go to the great blue yonder. I want to live my life happily free of tobacco, no matter for how long.

    You are younger than me. Consign all memories of the slimey, yellow sludge of an addiction to the past and enjoy your free-breathing, god given life to the full. You owe it to yourself and to those who love you. Be thankful you have had the strength and guts to come this far. You're free. Stay free and be happy. xxxx:)

  • I think its just that i used smoking as an emotional crutch for so so many years. and now, when hard days hit, theres nothing to fall back on.. only sweets chocolate and a bottle of wine! its not the same! lol. any ideas?

    I know what you mean but I believe our brains will reprogramme eventually. It's bound to take time after all those years of resorting to tobacco at every minor blip or major crisis. I keep telling myself that people who have never smoked manage perfectly well and therefore so can I :).

    Well done on your achievement Craig- that's fantastic! :D

  • Have I really done this?

    Feel a bit strange. at times i feel so great like im on top of the world. at others, i feel so helpless and feel like just getting a pack (whats the big deal).

    Im 33 and smoked more or less for the last 20 years or so. Guess my brain is changing now that im not inhaling all those fumes anymore. and so is my body. im not getting heavier but i can see my stomach filling out.

    feeling a bit lost and confused but happy at the same time. is this making any sense?

    Hiya and well done for 110 days :D :D

    You make total sense, we've all smoked for ages and we did use it as a prop so when that goes it does feel odd - like losing someone in a way *but* the longer you go on, the more "first time since" you have the more normal not smoking becomes!!

    lol and chocolate and wine sounds like a fab alternative to me!!

  • Have I really done this?

    Feel a bit strange. at times i feel so great like im on top of the world. at others, i feel so helpless and feel like just getting a pack (whats the big deal).

    Im 33 and smoked more or less for the last 20 years or so. Guess my brain is changing now that im not inhaling all those fumes anymore. and so is my body. im not getting heavier but i can see my stomach filling out.

    feeling a bit lost and confused but happy at the same time. is this making any sense?

    Wow, 110 days. Feels great doesn't it?

    I still have those moments now and then, when I think back to who I was almost a year ago. I kept telling myself that I'd quit by the time I was 30. I promised myself so many times that I'd do it "soon". I never imagined that I would be a comfortable non-smoker, but now it feels like the most natural thing in the world. :) And I'm five heard early!! That's five more years to give my body the time it needs to recover from my silly habit.

    Well done on your achievement! X

  • Thanks for the warm welcome and the encouragement.

    As a friend said to me, Im feeling shaky of late cos its probably down to stress elsewhere that was before resolved with smoking. Its almost like having to find new ways now to chill out and relax.

    Had someone told me 111 days ago that id be here, still smoke free and not even one puff in all that time,and CT to boot??... id have been the one laughing the hardest. Something really just needs to click into place in your mindset that dictates how the quit will go. I know its silly of me to tell myself that if i smoke again something really bad will happen and everything will go wrong. (cos strangely, since i quit, everything has been going really well - like hell im gonna play with that!).

  • Well done Craig and like others have said, your body will sort itself out in time. I couldn't imagine eating nothing between my tea and bedtime earlier in my quit as food was a replacement for the fags but I don't even think about it now :D

  • Hi Craig are you still around? Hope the stress has eased a bit for you :)

  • Have I really done this?

    Feel a bit strange. at times i feel so great like im on top of the world. at others, i feel so helpless and feel like just getting a pack (whats the big deal).

    Im 33 and smoked more or less for the last 20 years or so. Guess my brain is changing now that im not inhaling all those fumes anymore. and so is my body. im not getting heavier but i can see my stomach filling out.

    feeling a bit lost and confused but happy at the same time. is this making any sense?

    Massive well done to you Craig:)

You may also like...