Day 36 - I think

Hiya, well today is Day 36 (I think that's right Carolrose?)

It's sunny, the air smells nice, and I don't smoke

Am still "missing" my kickstart fag(s) first thing but not in the sense I want to smoke - just dopier than usual. But the extra time in bed is well worth it!!

And I'm not missing the taste of burning paper in my mouth and nose (dunno if they changed what goes in them, or if my brain cottoned on?) turning out of the wind so the smoke didn't go all over me, having to go outside in the rain, dark, cold, and the annoying habit i had of getting smoke in my eyes :eek:

Did get pretty stressed yesterday, and while i leant on the NRT the thought of having a fag wasn't appealing which I'm taking as a huge positive 'cos stress used to mean very smoky Gemma :eek:

Onwards :cool::cool:

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nsd_user663_54332

4 years ago

Well done Gemma

and try to avoid leaning too hard on the NRT if you can,only when you get mega stressed :confused:

For you I think yes it is the not smoking,sure;but also there is a new level to achieve which is no smoking and very little leaning on NRT or the handmouth thing for support,and that is where you need to concentrate sweetheart over the next 4-6 weeks-try to wean yourself away from that side cos you do not want this NRT thing to persist for too long . xx

I know what you mean Max, basically I want to close the smoking chapter of my life ASAP!!

But as you know it's very hard for me so while I use the NRT as little as I can I'm trying not to stress it too much - this *has* to be my last quit, so I want to get well settled into not smoking before attacking the nicotine bit too hard, if that makes sense?

Am not going to be using more than I have to though, or for any longer than I need to!!

Oooh and I don't want to swap smoking for chewing and sucking either, lol xx

nsd_user663_54332

4 years ago

Gemma I'm the same,just want it over asap!!!

In a way it is over,we don't smoke anymore,everything else is by product of that

Can you remember when a bit of ash blew up into your eye how painful was that?and the damage to our precious eye...Well it don't bear thinking about:eek:

And still we smoked:confused:

That's true, we haven't smoked all month!!

Lol, I didn't get that very often but smoke in the eyes, owwwww and up my nose *cue sneezing fit* and ash down my clothes, but usually just when I was wearing a black skirt or trousers :mad::mad:

Why did we do it? :confused:

And one of your partners in crime is still here too - sounding good and positive Carolrose, loving it! Now where is that Fitfor30????

Oooh i hope she's still with us!! Know she was having trouble with technology!!

nsd_user663_54332

4 years ago

I agree with you on this gems, we need to do this safely so we never smoke ever again and if it takes a bit longer to do that then so be it, nice to see you trucking on, well done xxx

Yep, it's a balance isn't it?

Don't want to be forever chewing or sucking 'cos that would feel like half a victory but on the other hand I have rubbish willpower and so I need the NRT to take the edge off!!

We're doing fab!! xxx

Happy day 36 sweetie pie and a big well done!! Loving the positivity of you at the moment. I think it's great that you're keeping the NRT at bay, but agree that you need to do what feels right. Stay away as much as possible and just weigh up each situation as it comes. If you feel you really need it, that's what it's there for! xxx

Aww thanks hun

Like i say, I'm finding a balance between using it loads and not enough - it's tricky but considering I used to smoke rather a lot it's going pretty well!!

Am determined to do this and to avoid the trap last time where I felt like a smoker so caved in :eek:

This is my forever quit and I'm taking good care of it!! xxx