Week 3 reflections

So this is day 17 for me.

Really feel like I've had to drag myself here - that'll be because I have:p

Seems like forever, and no time at all.

I still feel like I'm in the foothills of the Himalayas and the Penthouse is the reward for reaching the summit of Everest without oxygen. And it's that misty I can't even see the summit!

There have been days when it has been easy, but to be honest, it isn't yet! This is my mindset which seems determined that it will just be a matter of time until I cave in....and I seem to be much weaker than many of my co-quitters :(

.....I mean I bet no one else is telling themselves that if they live to be 90 they will definitely start smoking again!

I've realised (thanks to forum members) that I need to change my mind set and stop thinking I'm depriving myself of something I enjoy.

I have watched the Allen Carr Easy Way video on youtube, and bought the book.

I'm 100% determined to carry on, but I'm not even feeling physically better yet - I'm feeling worse. This doesn't seem fair since I am still in victim mode so think giving up ciggies is a sacrifice! ( I know - what an idiot!!)

Have had a bad throat, sleeping is difficult, am eating for England, runny nose is constant, I'm coughing more than when I smoked! pfffff :eek:

On the plus side:

the bank balance looks better

I smell beautiful

more quality time with people

telescope is only a few weeks away

I'm begrudgingly proud of myself

My family are glowingly proud of me :cool:

Thank you to everyone here in this forum too - this place keeps me focused when the voices start tempting me with their lies - one day at a time, baby steps

I will not smoke today :)

Mina

x

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  • Mina, you've done brilliantly to get where you are...no matter you can't see the summit, you know from others that it's there and reachable. You are doing this Mina :D

  • Nicely put Max :)

    Mina, you're doing brilliantly. Just keep believing you can do this thing because you can and will. :D

  • Just think Mina, in a few weeks you will have that telescope and although you may still not be able to see the penthouse with the naked eye, you will with that :) keep it up xx

  • Had a small telescope hesitation today as I browsed the Mulberry site Donna -just think, if only I 'd had a heavier smoking addiction I'd be able to afford one of their bags now :D:D:D

  • Had a small telescope hesitation today as I browsed the Mulberry site Donna -just think, if only I 'd had a heavier smoking addiction I'd be able to afford one of their bags now :D:D:D

    Just think Mina, keep going and that bag could be yours :D

    I think you are doing great and I am looking forward to you joining me at the penthouse next January! I can't go alone!! ;)

  • Dear Mina,

    Jeeze, I feel your pain That little b***ard just keeps a-calling.

    But we need to listen to those who have gone through this bit.

    Max put it right. We may only be at camp 1, but if we look up through the fog, we will see and feel the summit.

    And tell you summit else, we're going there :)

  • Mina, you really are doing blooooody brilliant.

    :)

    You have my total admiration.

    "People often say that motivation doesn’t last. Well, neither does bathing – that’s why we recommend it daily"

    -- Zig Ziglar

    KEEP GOING!

    Steve

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