So this is day 17 for me.
Really feel like I've had to drag myself here - that'll be because I have
Seems like forever, and no time at all.
I still feel like I'm in the foothills of the Himalayas and the Penthouse is the reward for reaching the summit of Everest without oxygen. And it's that misty I can't even see the summit!
There have been days when it has been easy, but to be honest, it isn't yet! This is my mindset which seems determined that it will just be a matter of time until I cave in....and I seem to be much weaker than many of my co-quitters
.....I mean I bet no one else is telling themselves that if they live to be 90 they will definitely start smoking again!
I've realised (thanks to forum members) that I need to change my mind set and stop thinking I'm depriving myself of something I enjoy.
I have watched the Allen Carr Easy Way video on youtube, and bought the book.
I'm 100% determined to carry on, but I'm not even feeling physically better yet - I'm feeling worse. This doesn't seem fair since I am still in victim mode so think giving up ciggies is a sacrifice! ( I know - what an idiot!!)
Have had a bad throat, sleeping is difficult, am eating for England, runny nose is constant, I'm coughing more than when I smoked! pfffff :eek:
On the plus side:
the bank balance looks better
I smell beautiful
more quality time with people
telescope is only a few weeks away
I'm begrudgingly proud of myself
My family are glowingly proud of me :cool:
Thank you to everyone here in this forum too - this place keeps me focused when the voices start tempting me with their lies - one day at a time, baby steps
I will not smoke today