Hey folks, so day 20 and day 5 of my detox. I feel i need to say its day 5 of nicotine free because how you feel on day 5 cold turkey vs day 20 is very different, and i feel like i only gave up 5 days ago tbh!
so Had a few negative thoughts, only lasting 20 seconds telling me the ecig would of been a better idea, i think maybe this is a last chance at hanging onto the idea of smoking? like 'its better than a fag and you get to smoke kind off'. which would be great...not gonna lie..but I do want to be addiction free, thats my main goal in this and i KNOW there will be a day i dont think about it and that shuts the thought up.
Day 5 is always a hard one for me when i go without nicotine, dno why, always harder than 2,3,4 and proberly just a lil easier than day 1. Im hoping i feel better tomorrow. Im so tired its a joke literally eyes rolling to back of my head in lessons last few days. And i cant stop eating...Im goin sainsburys later and im going to stock up on savory snacks. Tbh..a few pounds wont harm me im a size 10 anyways so ill enjoy it! but I plan to start running from monday next week.
Ah i feel really happy in this quit, no real upset this time, no depressed feelings at all! dont wanna ring me own horn to much but im sure this is a quit for keeps, i just feel different this time xxxx