Stupid is one word for it.

[nsd_user663_58909]

As you will probably have gathered from the title, not a good day.

If I'm honest, it went wrong and very quickly downhill yesterday after I had posted (bragged - pride comes before a fall and all that jazz) that I had had my last fag at 2.30 pm.

WRONG - COMPLETE AND UTTER GARBAGE.

Needless to say, I smoked a few more cigs yesterday up to 10 pm and then my stubborn side kicked in and I made a promise to myself that that was it.

Things went fine until 5 pm today when I sucumbed to one of them there thingys - why after going on 18 hours did I do something so daft, stupid and silly as I gained nothing just lost all credability.

If anyone knows/has the answer to that question I would love to hear it.

Ashamed is one word for it as it is my own stupidity and weakness that is to blame.

Apologies to all.

[nsd_user663_52101]

If at first you dont succeed

Don't be ashamed,we have all done it at one time(me more than once)

Please just go back to day1 and start again,and hopefully you will learn your triggers and avoid the trap next time....You,ll be fine....Good luck.

[nsd_user663_54332]

Aww that's a shame but we've all been there - more than once for me!!

The thing that matters is that you *want* to quit and you will do it, but like Max says you have to choose your weapons

I can't quit cold turkey, it doesn't work unless I'm ill for like a week so have tried and succeeded with NRT and Allen Carr.

There isn't a "right" way to quit, except for the one that works for you

[nsd_user663_58249]

Awww, I am sorry

It seems to me you DEFINITELY want this quit and you want it to stick. I was unsuccessful 5 times. Each time I quit "temporarily" it was for about 2 weeks. I could NOT make it past 14 days to save my life. Each time I quit I went Cold Turkey...(Sometimes I would chew Nic gum to ease the withdrawal somewhat, but I found they did not work) This time was it for me. I was sick and tired of quitting and I just HAD to do it. I quit again permanently on April 30th. I again went Cold Turkey and it was so hard for the first 3 days. The reason I did it Cold Turkey each time was to make myself suffer so I would NOT want to pick it up again. This last time worked with that method and I do NOT crave nor do I want a cigarette.

I have distinguished two ways that people think or crave about smoking. Either its a "thought" or its a "crave." There definitely is a difference to them both, but I just haven't figured how there is a difference. Do I think about smoking? Yes, periodically through out the week I do...Is it a lot? Not anymore. There are days when I do NOT even think about it anymore. Do I crave...This is where I was getting these two confused. I don't feel like I crave cigarettes. I think it is just a thought now with me. I absolutely don't feel like I did when I was one day 1-3 of my quit. So I feel there is a difference between thinking about it and craving it.

You will get where I am today as long as you stand up to yourself and say NO...I am BETTER than that cigarette. I will "NEVER TAKE ANOTHER PUFF" My problems will still be there even if I smoke a cigarette. The cigarette is NOT going to fix my problems... You will do this...I have faith in everyone...Did I want to quit? Hell no, I enjoyed smoking...I did it for myself because I want to live a long, healthy life...and I did it for my family because I wanted to grow old with them... I hope this helped you...

Everytime I write about my journey in quitting it definitely helps me...

Kyle :D:D:D:D:D:):):):)

[nsd_user663_58827]

Hi Buttons,

Have you read the Allen Carr book? I found it a very useful tool because it explains all of the reasons why people struggle to give up and how to overcome them. You can get the book for about £3 delivered on eBay - I would certainly recommend reading it. I have only been nine days without a cigarette but I can honestly say that I haven't found it very difficult after reading that book.

[nsd_user663_58909]

To each and every single one of you

That took time out to reply to my posting - I can't thank you enough.

Sound advice from all - now all I have to do is convince my mind/brain that it is possible to do this.

Can't quite believe that I found this site purely by accident - looking for something totally unrelated to smoking and/or quitting but I am so very glad that I did.

Never give up giving up seems to be the key so with that in mind I will just pick myself up and damp myself down (dusting myself off is too much like hard work in this heat! :D) and start once again.

What's past is past and nothing will change what has happened but I can change my future so onwards and upwards and here we go! :)

Thanks again everyone and it's a privelege to belong and made to feel so welcome although with my posting it's possible you may live to regret it as once I start, I don't know when to stop:eek:!

Looking forward to a great journey although it may not always be smooth, I feel that this time, I can make it (obviously with a little help!)

Enjoy the rest of this hot afternoon.