Have had some pretty rough times over the last month or so, things that when I smoked would have made me into Gem The Human Chimney, or broken my quit :eek: but apart from this place there's been one thing that's kept me off the fags.
I've quit smoking, and as anyone who's read my wittering over the last almost 7 months knows have had a hell of a time doing it. Knowing me, I won't do it again 'cos I'll be too chicken and unlike previous quits am under no illusions as to where having a smoke will end up.
There is no such thing as "just one" they come by the 20. I'm an addict and always will be, my last quit taught me that!!
So when it comes down to it, the last saving thought in my mind has been that if I smoke now it will be for the rest of my life and I don't want that. :eek:
Smoking won't make what upset me go away. It won't change anything, undo or unsay things, won't say things that would have been better!! It doesn't make nights out any more fun, doesn't make c**p times any better either - all that will happen is me going back to spending £8+ a day on those nasty sticks, smelling of smoke and slowly killing myself.
Not just me wittering, hopefully if someone thinking about having a smoke and they read this they might think twice?