Hi everyone -- I'm a newbie to the forum, having just joined today. I'm 37, and have smoked around 40 cigarettes per day since I was 19 years old. And I'm desperate to quit!
I started cutting down the number of cigarettes I smoke to under 10 a day a few weeks ago. I purchased a nicotine mouth spray yesterday and started to use it to replace them -- I'm sad to say that I haven't managed it yet, but I'm down to 3-4 per day. Hopefully, I'll get down to zero very soon.
Earlier this year, my cousin died of lung cancer caused by smoking. He was just 45 years young. This certainly had a big impact on my motivation to quit; however, I recently got married and I'll be damned if I'm going to gamble with my health any longer. We went on honeymoon, and the hotel we stayed at was full of elderly couples. It really hit home with me how wonderful it must be to reach old-age with the person that you love. I used to be scared of growing old; now I'm terrified of dying young! (yes, I'm aware of the sad story of Brian). Of course, quitting won't mean that I'll/we'll get there -- life's a hard journey -- but I don't want to stack the odds against it.
As determined as I am, I do have one big doubt -- I often feel as though I've aready done the damage; that I'm destined to end-up like my cousin even if I do quit; that I've already been given a death sentence by lung cancer. The thought of this haunts me, and I think about it every day. It's really effecting my quality of mental health and my life in general. I was just wondering if anyone else has/has had similar thoughts? :confused: