I have never registered on any forum before but was reading through this one and decided maybe it was worth a go.
I am on day 2 today and i am confident i can hold out even though it is hard, especially at the times when i would always have a cigarrette.
I have tried quitting many times in the past and always eventually gone back to them. Some times i know i will fail even as i attempt to quit and others i talk myself around to buying them when i am stressted or angry etc.
I must succeed this time. I have made so many promises to my wife in the past that i have broken that when it comes to smoking i see it in her face that she just doesnt beleive me anymore. I have even resorted to buying two packets of cigarrettes at once in the past to have a pack for show so i can say i am only having the odd one, and a pack that she doesnt know about that i dip into secretly. That is how sneakly i have been in the past.
We recently bought a house together that is in desperate need of fixing up. I get so guilty when i have to say to her we will have to wait until we get paid again to do that bit of work because we cant afford it and then i am popping up the road to buy cigarrettes. She has never thrown that in my face and never accused me of being a hypocrite.
These are the reasons why i will sicceed this time. I am no longer going to feel like a villain. I am no longer going to feel guilty and chastise myself for this. I want to look my wife in the eyes and be able to honestly say i havent smoked today and i wont tomorrow either. Yes we can afford a holiday next year because i wont be spending all out money on cigarrettes.
Sorry to waffle on just feels nice to tell strangers the truth. Honestly i am in agony at the moment and the corner shop is singing my name but i know that today i have the strength to ignore it. Lets see what tomorrow brings!!!