I have decided to quit smoking tomorrow.
I'm 25 and I smoke at least 20 cigarettes a day, sometimes upto 30 (Which I and others think is ridiculous for my age)
I smoke for many reasons : habitual, addiction, boredom, stress, dependency but I absolutely loath it. I've become so dependent on it. I feel alienated because of the amount I smoke, and although I absolutely despise it I can't imagine my life without it.
it is costing me so much £££! it's ridiculous!! It's constantly draining me of whatever money I get. Can't imagine a more expensive "hobby"
Although the thought of being a non-smoker sounds thrilling. I would like nothing more. The thought of it also TERRIFIES ME.
Is it normal to be scared of quitting even before the actual date? I fear failure and know if I have a cig I will be so disappointed in myself. However the thought of the cravings scares me a lot.
I dread waking up tomorrow and not reaching for a cigarette