Today I am less of a crazy person.
I still feel as though I will inevitably fail (not sure why?! :confused:), but I have proven that I can get through the tougher times. The panic has been replaced with a little pride instead and I need to remember this going forward. I attempt to do so by buying a t shirt with "YOU CAN DO IT, YOU ARE STRONG!" plastered all over the front. Tehehe.
I think that I have been in my head too much over the last few days and I need to push those negative thoughts away by focusing on something more constructive (reading, exercising etc). I am often a thinker/worrier (whatever you want to call it) and so maybe, for a change, I'd be best staying out of there until things have shifted back into place!
Have some faith in myself (after all, I've got this far, right?)
Listen to others (they know what they're talking about!).
Don't beat myself up (even if it means using the dreaded e-cig now and then, there's nothing wrong with needing some help).
I look forward to my optimism making an appearance again (I believe it is currently on vacation and will return shortly :rolleyes and holding onto the thought that these are just the building blocks that are moving me further and further from my last cigarette.
Thanks again everyone. I wouldn't have made it to Day 45 without your help.