Well I'm here, at 5 weeks, and each milestone is starting to feel good
I had a bit of a rough night late on Wesnesday, then woke up yesterday feeling a little better. It unfortunately didn't last, as someone had decided to throw obstacles at me throughout the morning. I became annoyed at people's eating habits (really, is there any need to eat like an animal?!) and then felt guilty for letting it annoy me. Work was pants and I just wanted to smoke.
I think sometimes, when we're on a high, we can forget that we're still vulnerable can't we? And, whilst it would be lovely, we can't avoid stress free situations forever.
So, I didn't smoke, but I did find myself more and more agitated. One of those stupid moods that causes you to yell at yourself "snap out of it!".
Last night was to be my first night on the booze (should have been last weekend but I stayed pretty sober). I felt a little vulnerable, and grumpy, so I planned to take it slowly. Alas, with the help of my friend Gemma (thanks again), I got myself pretty darn tipsy but also had encouraging messages throughout the night.
When I arrived home I did have a puff on my e-cig, but have woken again today (as I did last weekend) not really wanting it anywhere near me.
I've probably blabbed a bit (again), but it's only in the hope that someone else finds my posts useful in their experience.
Anyway, here I am! Optimism returned and hoping it doesn't leave me quite so suddenly (struggling with my own mood swings, let alone anyone else having to deal with them)!
It's a beautiful sunny day outside :eek::cool: and I DO NOT WANT A CIGARETTE
Havea great day guys!