Dragged myself along to Day 35

Well I'm here, at 5 weeks, and each milestone is starting to feel good :)

I had a bit of a rough night late on Wesnesday, then woke up yesterday feeling a little better. It unfortunately didn't last, as someone had decided to throw obstacles at me throughout the morning. I became annoyed at people's eating habits (really, is there any need to eat like an animal?!) and then felt guilty for letting it annoy me. Work was pants and I just wanted to smoke.

I think sometimes, when we're on a high, we can forget that we're still vulnerable can't we? And, whilst it would be lovely, we can't avoid stress free situations forever.

So, I didn't smoke, but I did find myself more and more agitated. One of those stupid moods that causes you to yell at yourself "snap out of it!".

Last night was to be my first night on the booze (should have been last weekend but I stayed pretty sober). I felt a little vulnerable, and grumpy, so I planned to take it slowly. Alas, with the help of my friend Gemma (thanks again), I got myself pretty darn tipsy but also had encouraging messages throughout the night.

When I arrived home I did have a puff on my e-cig, but have woken again today (as I did last weekend) not really wanting it anywhere near me.

I've probably blabbed a bit (again), but it's only in the hope that someone else finds my posts useful in their experience.

Anyway, here I am! Optimism returned and hoping it doesn't leave me quite so suddenly (struggling with my own mood swings, let alone anyone else having to deal with them)!

It's a beautiful sunny day outside :eek::cool: and I DO NOT WANT A CIGARETTE :D

Havea great day guys!

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  • Well I'm here, at 5 weeks, and each milestone is starting to feel good : )

    I had a bit of a rough night late on Wesnesday, then woke up yesterday feeling a little better. It unfortunately didn't last, as someone had decided to throw obstacles at me throughout the morning. I became annoyed at people's eating habits (really, is there any need to eat like an animal?!) and then felt guilty for letting it annoy me. Work was pants and I just wanted to smoke.

    I think sometimes, when we're on a high, we can forget that we're still vulnerable can't we? And, whilst it would be lovely, we can't avoid stress free situations forever.

    So, I didn't smoke, but I did find myself more and more agitated. One of those stupid moods that causes you to yell at yourself "snap out of it!".

    Last night was to be my first night on the booze (should have been last weekend but I stayed pretty sober). I felt a little vulnerable, and grumpy, so I planned to take it slowly. Alas, with the help of my friend Gemma (thanks again), I got myself pretty darn tipsy but also had encouraging messages throughout the night.

    When I arrived home I did have a puff on my e-cig, but have woken again today (as I did last weekend) not really wanting it anywhere near me.

    I've probably blabbed a bit (again), but it's only in the hope that someone else finds my posts useful in their experience.

    Anyway, here I am! Optimism returned and hoping it doesn't leave me quite so suddenly (struggling with my own mood swings, let alone anyone else having to deal with them)!

    It's a beautiful sunny day outside :eek::cool: and I DO NOT WANT A CIGARETTE :D

    Havea great day guys!

    You're doing brilliantly Sarah - it's lovely to see you knocking up the milestones, being so positive and not wanting to smoke!!

    5 weeks is fab, bet you didn't think you'd get that far when you put your last one out - and every day makes the nicotine monster smaller!!

    I think so often when we quit, we treat the symptom (smoking) without treating the cause (wanting to) - know that's what I've done in my previous quits. But when you *want* to be a non-smoker that's half the battle!!

    It's great you didn't smoke last night, especially when you were a bit tipsy - that's a big test 'cos alcohol lowers your defences and a few puffs on your (very weak) e-cig won't hurt, hell of a lot better than lighting up anyway.

    Glad i helped a bit :)

    Here's to the next 5 weeks xx

  • You're doing brilliantly Sarah - it's lovely to see you knocking up the milestones, being so positive and not wanting to smoke!!

    5 weeks is fab, bet you didn't think you'd get that far when you put your last one out - and every day makes the nicotine monster smaller!!

    I think so often when we quit, we treat the symptom (smoking) without treating the cause (wanting to) - know that's what I've done in my previous quits. But when you *want* to be a non-smoker that's half the battle!!

    It's great you didn't smoke last night, especially when you were a bit tipsy - that's a big test 'cos alcohol lowers your defences and a few puffs on your (very weak) e-cig won't hurt, hell of a lot better than lighting up anyway.

    Glad i helped a bit :)

    Here's to the next 5 weeks xx

    *Raises mug of tea to toast* Not sure if wine would be appropriate right now :rolleyes: lol x

  • *Raises mug of tea to toast* Not sure if wine would be appropriate right now :rolleyes: lol x

    Definitely too early for wine!! :eek::eek:

    *Clinks mugs* xx

  • The good news is that we all three enjoyed a few glasses and not one of us has woken this morning full of guilt because we've got to start all over again. From where I stand I'm putting it down to having three consciences between us, all of which keep reminding me that smoking is stupid and I don't need to do it! I will go make myself a cuppa and clink as well!:D

    We drag each other along :D

    And thank god we all got through a smoke free night!!

  • Brilliant news Sarah - Congratulations!

    There will be no stopping you now, not with your positive attitude. I'm hoping some of it is rubbing off on me thanks to your support.

    Onwards and upwards for both of us :D.

    Linda xx

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