Is day 14 over yet? What rubbish!

I've been feeling so good the last few days that today's weakness hit me hard.

To cut a long story short:

1. Argued (badly) with dad

2. Brother depressed and needed to cry on my shoulder - he smoked like a chimney (not with me, but the smell is overwhelming)

3. Work at moment is shit

4. The fox got my three chickens. :(

I've had to endure that whiny voice again. It's returned with a vengeance:

Whiny voice: A fag will make you feel better

Me: No, it won't

Whiny voice: Just have one. Imagine how nice it will be lighting up

Me: No, I'll have some water instead.

Whiny voice: Nothing can relax you like a fag. Just light up. Go on. You know you want to. Just one...

etc. etc. etc.

*rolls eyes*

So I can't wait for tomorrow to come. I am fully aware that this is another association - another obstacle. It's bloody hard work. I just hope the next week is going to be easier, but with family issues hotting up, i doubt it...

:(

Nik

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  • Hi Nik

    Sometimes things all come at once.

    I felt that way last week....its a pure git! :mad:

    I blamed everything that was happening to me on quitting....but the truth is it unfortunately it would have been happening to me if I still smoked.....so at least by quitting I had a huge positive ..... slap bang in the middle of all the crap!

    Try running around or 10 minutes vigorous exercise.....helps take your mind of you know what and makes you feel better...get some lovely endorphins swimming around. (or a little bit of chocolate can do the same thing :))

    I know it's hard but you have to make time for yourself now more than any other. Work got on top of me very early on so I took 3 days off just for the hell of it. Felt a lot better after that.

    Hope everything calms down for you soon.

    Take care

    Greg

  • I've been feeling so good the last few days that today's weakness hit me hard.

    To cut a long story short:

    1. Argued (badly) with dad

    2. Brother depressed and needed to cry on my shoulder - he smoked like a chimney (not with me, but the smell is overwhelming)

    3. Work at moment is shit

    4. The fox got my three chickens. :(

    I've had to endure that whiny voice again. It's returned with a vengeance:

    Whiny voice: A fag will make you feel better

    Me: No, it won't

    Whiny voice: Just have one. Imagine how nice it will be lighting up

    Me: No, I'll have some water instead.

    Whiny voice: Nothing can relax you like a fag. Just light up. Go on. You know you want to. Just one...

    etc. etc. etc.

    *rolls eyes*

    So I can't wait for tomorrow to come. I am fully aware that this is another association - another obstacle. It's bloody hard work. I just hope the next week is going to be easier, but with family issues hotting up, i doubt it...

    :(

    Nik

    x

    Hiya , sorry to hear you are having a tough day , my last dip into the forum before bed and seeing off another smoke free day.

    I can really relate to the whiny voice scenario , I have spent all of my quit days constantly talking to myself with a little mantra..

    dont want one

    dont need one

    haven't got any

    not buying any

    Here's to a more positive day for you tomorrow and look how far you have come and how your posts will be helping others

    Donna :)

  • Chocolatey goodness...

    Greg / Donna,

    Thanks so much for your replies. The funny thing is (actually not so funny at all) that while I know a fag wouldn't solve any of the issues I had, it was just so persistent, attention-seeking even.

    As scary as it seems, there was a part of my brain that was really convinced that a fag would in fact bring my chickens back, or turn back time so that I don't argue with dad.

    I was so close to losing control from within today, when over the last week i've been so proud of how well I was doing. Maybe I lowered my guard too quick.

    Moral of the story: keep your guards up, folks.

  • dont want one

    dont need one

    haven't got any

    not buying any

    This is now going to be my mantra!

    Great suggestion Donna!

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