Day 9

Well I made it!! Day 9 and after 3pm today it will be day 10

My thanks to you all for your continued support, I suppose its like being an alcoholic, taking each day as it comes.

What has really surprised me is the emotions I feel now. I keep bursting into tears - get a feeling of being all on my own - think these feelings have been covered up by smoking - had to face them one day I suppose. I am fine once I have cried.

Still get cravings of course, but yesterday eating an orange took them away.

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  • :D That's just great.

    I think you do have to take each day as it comes and remember whatever it is that might be troubling you smoking will not make it better and will never make it better. You are healing yourself now from an addiction and you've done 10 days !! It's brilliant. Treat yourself:D xx

  • Well done on getting to day 8 - and soon day 9. I feel the same about smoking covering up emotions, thoughts and experiences from the past. I feel sad sometimes, and I'm also remembering stuff from the past which I had "forgotton". I see this as a good thing, as it's getting it out in the open where it can be addressed, rather than supressing it and covering it up.

  • Well done

    Hi Rainbowpot - congratulations on getting this far. You've done very well since the initial days are the worst.

    As far as emotions are concerned, I found them to be a big surprise too. I hadn't fully realised how much smoking affected the emotions by deadening them. So while you may be bursting into tears now, experiencing the emotional lows, I promise you that the highs will be better than you've experienced for a long time, and so it's all balanced out.

    It is essentially an emotional journey that you're embarking on and you will enjoy a lot of the places you will visit. Of the "new" emotions I've experienced since I've given up smoking, some of my favourites are:

    freedom

    calmness

    positivity

    availability

    relief

    self assured

    The new emotional journey is very enjoyable, and it's worth not smoking to experience the multifaceted new person that we all become.

  • Well I made it!! Day 9 and after 3pm today it will be day 10

    My thanks to you all for your continued support, I suppose its like being an alcoholic, taking each day as it comes.

    What has really surprised me is the emotions I feel now. I keep bursting into tears - get a feeling of being all on my own - think these feelings have been covered up by smoking - had to face them one day I suppose. I am fine once I have cried.

    Still get cravings of course, but yesterday eating an orange took them away.

    Well done Rainbowpot, you're doing great and you will make it!! :cool:

    The emotions do get better - I had it really bad in my 2nd week, was teary, upset, my tummy was in a knot - all kinds and it's not *me* at all but that's more or less gone now!!

    Keep it up and good luck!

    Gemma x

  • Thankyou all so much.

    This experience is teaching me a lot about myself.

    Still miss smoking often but God willing it will all pass.

    I love this forum, thankyou

  • You'll miss it less and less until one day you will realise that it seems like ages since you thought about smoking.

  • The more I think about it Biggrin, love the name . the more I can see that if I have just one cigarette - it could be one too many.

    I used to belong to Alanon many years ago - I have the one step programme book - I think I will look it out, I might find it useful.

  • I think you are spot on about that Rainbowpot, one smoke leads to one more, leads to a packet.............and you are smoking again. There are people on this site who gave up for literally 5 or more years, then had one cigarette, and before they knew it they were smoking again.:mad:

    In the longer term the thoughts like "one won't hurt" or "I always had one when........" or other similar "just have one" thoughts are really dangerous. Long term quitters say the thoughts aren't strong and insistent like at the beginning of the quit. However, I think we may always have to be on guard to a certain extent, especially in trigger situations.

    That said, people talk about a mental switch which operates at some point and your thinking changes such that you just don't want a smoke. I look forward to that.

  • i cried alot at the start usually in the bathroom on my own because i didnt want my family seeing me cry just because i wanted to smoke and couldnt stop thinking about it, but pleased to say that passes and it kinda creeps up on you and you suddenly realise wow i havent thought about it for a few hours and wow i havent cried yet today

    you are doing brill and all this will make you stronger in the future

    one of the things that stays in the forefront of my mind is i never ever want to go through the early part of my quit ever again and the only way to achieve that is to never start again then all will be fine

    stay strong

    boo

  • Day 11 has started - its not fair I still want a cigarette. i can be eg reading something decorating and it just grips me and I think oh no not again - when will it go, I am so sick of wanting a cigarette and not being able to have one.

    One thig on the positive side though is that the number of strong urges to smoke are not as many now - the urges seem to get me when I am not looking and take me by complete surprise - so I suppose it is getting better in an odd sort of way.

    Thankyou for your support

  • Day 11 has started - its not fair I still want a cigarette. i can be eg reading something decorating and it just grips me and I think oh no not again - when will it go, I am so sick of wanting a cigarette and not being able to have one.

    One thig on the positive side though is that the number of strong urges to smoke are not as many now - the urges seem to get me when I am not looking and take me by complete surprise - so I suppose it is getting better in an odd sort of way.

    Thankyou for your support

    Oh Rainbow, you're doing so well :)

    I know it's hard, have had a bad day myself and have wanted a cigarette all day - and most of the girls I work with smoke like chimneys - *but* like you I haven't had one and the urges are manageable!!

    It does get better, and don't forget to feel proud that you're not having a fag even though you've wanted one :)

    You'll make it!!

  • Gemma-Lou

    It cant be easy working with people who smoke - you are so strong.

    I have been really grumpy and miserable all day - I am sick of myself. Still feeling very fragile emotionally, still want a smoke.

    Drinking smoothies now - I am going to be so healthy and so boring.:eek:

  • Gemma-Lou

    It cant be easy working with people who smoke - you are so strong.

    I have been really grumpy and miserable all day - I am sick of myself. Still feeling very fragile emotionally, still want a smoke.

    Drinking smoothies now - I am going to be so healthy and so boring.:eek:

    It's not great Rainbow and thanks, but the girl I share an office with and I are quit buddies so we help each other :) We used to go out to the smoking shelter together loads, now we help each other not to!!

    Honestly, it really does get better! Know how you feel with the emotions, it's horrible but it's your brain getting used to not having nicotine. Are you going CT or using NRT?

    I've gone through really lousy times, and have moaned about them on here, but the longer you go without having a cigarette, the weaker the cravings get and the better the sadness gets!

    Every day you don't have a smoke, it's going to get a bit weaker :)

    Stay strong and you will beat this!!

    I can't imagine you ever being boring though :)

    Gemma x

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