Hope you're all well. I've been AWOL as I've been on holiday visiting my 2 and 3 year old nieces. I had the most marvellous time and am still smoke free! It seemed to be getting easier and I cut down the champix to one tablet a day. However, I got home yesterday and the cravings hit like a train and I was so agitated, crying and chewing my fingernails to the quick.....WHYand WHEN will this end!!! :confused:
Today is better though and I'm still hanging in there. I am so grateful to have found this forum - I got back into reading the posts and I'm doing OK and can feel a little more positive. There are a few of you on here that I credit for helping me get through each day....and the folks that replied to my posts and they are in no particular order, carol62, biggrin, nifty(you really helped with describing the intensity of cravings as being like a volume control knob and this helps me turn it down when its really bad - thank you), haze56, sian583, popo72, karri(I love that you describe yourself as a non smoker in training as I feel that's what I am too), nonico, here-we-go, helsbelles(my mum used to say hells, bells and buckets of blood when she was cross...mum died 18 months ago and I miss her and you have such a way with words that I think that maybe my mum had a hand in guiding me to this forum because she knew it was full of good genuine people) and mrsm(I think I remember you wrote a response that you had a baby in RAF changi? Sorry if I got it wrong but if I'm right then my mum was posted to RAF seletar)
Anyway, I'm 60 days free so I suppose that means I go to month 3!
Today has been a better day but I know that I haven't hit the smooth yet so will keep taking it one day at a time. Thank you all and in the words of Christopher robin to pooh 'promise me you'all always remember you're braver than you believe and stronger than you seem and smarter than you think', we can do this, we are doing it and we'll keep doing it!!