I hope this post doesn't sound like too much of a repitition to anyone reading it. I've read many threads on this forum and everyone has their story, mine really is no different at all. I am a slave to cigarettes!
The main problem for me is, like many others, is that I completely understand this but I am too weak to take any positive action towards combating it. I always have an excuse for putting off the stopping, (I'll just finish this packet, I have a really stressful time at work approaching, I have a social event to attend).
I have smoked now for 25 years, more than half my life, which in itself is a very scarey statistic. I roll my own and buy in bulk (from Belgium) so cost isn't really an issue, nor are the social stigmas that are attatched to smoking. My real focus is on the fact that I have two beautiful young children, and the thought of leaving them fatherless at so young an age, along with the thought of not seeing them grow up is more than I can bear.
With all that said I am still choosing to smoke, so how selfish does that me?
I'm not looking for sympathy, I just need some pointers from people who have been, or are going through the same thing, on how they took the first rung up the non-smoking ladder.
Thanks in advance for your time - it is greatly appreciated