Ok. its my day off and .. I have reached and just past my normal cave point, I made it through all the insomnia, itching to the point I swear my cats didnt sit with me cos they thought I had Fleas and were going to offer me their Frontline...:eek: restless legs, coughing etc... made it past all the yuk stuff and seeing the benefits, lovely skin, smells nice, sleeping etc...and I was thinking wooohoooooooooooo shes done it
but now I just feel I am back to square one...Im tired all the time, I wake yo at 5am then my eye lids clamp shut when I have to get up at 6.45 I have to force myself to get up... with my eyes closed slap my face a little, no energy adn falling asleep at 5pm on the sofa and really panicking about saturday night, my friends birthday party , finding I clearing my throat again
What happening?? Everything was going so well adn now BOSH..its all a mess again, sat and cried this morning and I dont know why, all I was doing was thinking how fab summer was this yr ...Then I read on here that someone was still craving badly after 12 months and to prepare for it etc...OMGGGG
Whats going on please I feel like Im on an emotional roller coaster and I want to get off cos Im not enjoying this ride
Hey hey hey!!!!
Come now, its not all bad, theres a few dips and troughs, i feel your frustration though and i was feeling just the same when i was where you are.
You'll have good days and bad days, today it seems is a bad one, tomorrow should be fab again. I had a niggly day yesterday, but am 8 weeks tomorrow and there are seriously less and lessening all the time. Honestly!!!
YOU WONT FEEL LIKE THIS FOREVER!
Your brain is resetting, getting used to not having the crutches and the incredible amount of harmful chemicals.... the nicoteen monster is prodding you cos he wants his fix..... dont let him win!!!
I took each day at a time and when i woke up i saw what it was like and acted accordingly, somedays were bouncy, some were a bit naff, dont push yourself.
You've been ill with an addiction for many years, your now getting better... those feelings, thats repairation and healing that is.
Keep with it... sending massssive hugs xxxx