Hi everyone - this is my first time on this forum. I have smoked for 23 years and I have had many many attempts over the years. The last couple of years I haven't gone more than 6 weeks before returning to cigarettes. I'm on here as I feel getting support and reading other people's stories are really encouraging. I've no-one to talk to about stopping apart from a couple of people as I am a secret smoker - I know it's quite sad at my age but I'm so ashamed I don't want my family to know that I am still a smoker. The reason I'm writing this is that I know that I can be a happy non-smoker as I have been in the past. When I smoke I feel miserable, no confidence, a slave to the weed etc I know I must stop I know it's going kill me - it's just making that commitment and sticking to it. Each time I've stopped in the past I have thought after a few weeks - I'm going to buy some cigs tonight and smoke and I forget all the bad things that come with smoking - the smell, having to hide it from family, the slavery etc and just remember the good times when I've smoked (I know it sounds stupid) - then I'm back to the smoking pit again!:mad: I want this time to count. Also my problem is I always find an excuse to start smoking again or think well I'll stop next week instead of this week etc. I just wondered did anyone else keep making excuses when to stop?