Hi All! I feel very ashamed to be back at day one after my last quit attempt was going very well. I attended a social gathering the other weekend where I meet up with a lot of old friends. It was great to see them & it all started so well. People were congratulating me on stopping smoking & the memories of good times were the topic of conversation. Unfortunately I had a little too much to drink & before I knew it I was smoking! :mad: It is very hard to express the feeling of 'It's OK, I'm a non smoker now, it's only one!' It very soon turned into another & another. Anyway, when I woke the next morning, my throat was horrible, chest heavy & the cough was back!:confused: I didn't smoke again for 2 days as I felt so ashamed but by then the nicotine had taken control & I started have one a day, then a couple & before I knew it, back on 10 a day! Just to let you all know what you are all missing:- An overall feeling of shame & guilt, £5 per day on the stupid things, a heavy chest, cough back, fitness gone from good to rubbish, all in the matter of a week! This weekend I went & got an inhaler so I can try NRT instead of CT. Here we go, back on it; I feel much better writing this and getting it off my chest! I hope everybody else is doing well including all the stoptober guys!