today has been one crazy day, and one long and constant battle with those nic demons. they are evil little mites and need to be squashed forever.
I decided after much positive support from forum members that I could make it today without patches and just rely on gum. I think previously I was panicing that I didnt want to be tempted so I just chewed nicotine gum constantly. anyway today Ive only had 4 pieces and I thought I would share whats happened.
The nic demon started to creep up at around 11.30am, i had a banging headache and was feeling pretty grim. a little thought came in my head about fags and I squished that straight away but as time went on and I felt like a battle was starting. the nic demon was saying your in a bad mood and thats becuase of me, have a ciggie and it will all go away. I knew that I didnt want one but would that ciggie thought go away.....NO!!! all day and tonight Ive been grumpy, grouchy and generally a moody moog. but ive not given in and I wont be doing either
My workmates have given me smiley stickers to help, low fat treats and my wonderful boyfriend took me out tonight for a surprise meal with my mum and they both praised me for giving up and sticking to it. they also said they would prefer abit of mooginess for a while rather than me smoking.
Im feeling positive that I can control these cravings with all the support I have, Im very very lucky girl.
for anyone who is struggling, its horrible but stick with it, read the stuff on here, message everyone, look at the websites but most of all believe in yourself and look forward to tomorrow still being smoke free!!
if you have ever seen the moog from willow the wisp thats me!! or my nickname for being in a bad mood, my real name is sam and I thank every person who has helped and supported me today. I hope to be able to return the good vibes.