It has been some time since I have been on. As older members may recall, I gave up at Christmas and made it for several months, but then life kicked me up side the head. I was diagnosed with Horner's syndrome, which is a problem with the eyes, or more specifically the nerves involved in pupil dilation, so my left pupil is permanently constricted and cannot respond to light. The cause of this, it turns out the thoracic outlet syndrome, a constriction of the nerves in my neck, that also cause left sided numbness and pain. That was my first test, that I got through, but then my partner of 6 years, and father of my five year old, I discovered, was busy online meeting lots of women and told me to get out. My quit ended there.
I have been planning on quitting, then not, for several months, but am finally in a place to try again. I have had a tough time. Moved in with a friend for a few months while my 48 year old partner moved in his new 19 year old girlfriend two days later (and he has an 18 year old son living there - do not get me started!). While staying with my friend and doing 40 hours a week in my accelerated nursing program, I became ill again, and lost 20lbs in three weeks. This resulted in a trip to ER, lots of fluids and a diagnosis of a huge (4mm) kidney stone lodged in my right kidney. I am still undergoing tests to determine if I have IBS that caused me to get dehydrated and thus the stone, or if the stone caused the stomach problems, and they are figuring out how to get the stone out of my kidney as it is so big it is dangerous to pass (it will likely block flow and kill off my kidney).
I now have my own apartment, that I love, two beds, near the lake, and my son stays with my at least half the time, which I adore. I have managed to maintain all A's in my program (bar one A-) in my program. I have met a lovely gentleman, but am taking it slowly. Finally though, I need to quit the smoking again.
So, I hope you guys are willing to welcome me and my drama back, this post is hugely cathartic, and I hope to start the quit tomorrow morning and look forward to being involved again