almost there!

Well here i am 9 mths into quitting smoking, its not anything iv ever done before. does it feel good ? no. do i miss smoking? on rare occasions the thought of smoking passes through my thoughts. am i happier? no but neither was i happy smoking, but at least i can breathe better. the only good thing to come out of quitting is the freedom from being controlled 24/7 by smoking and when i sit and think about that i realize this freedom is priceless. im sure my best days are yet to come. my life is filled with unhappiness at the moment ,my mum is on her last legs. i fell out with my younger sister ,we used to be best mates. im unemployed and feel like im on the scrapheap. whinge whine and whinge . probably all solvable niggles really. a cigarette would give me permission to avoid it all and fume under a cloud. but im not taking that route. iv put 3.5 stone on since quitting, its slowly dropping off very slowly. keeping on keeping on. things might get better but wont if i smoke im living in hope. good luck everybody.

Mashx

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  • Aw Mash you sound really down at the moment :(

    You should be really proud of your 9 month milestone.

    I'm starting to realise that ok,not smoking does not give you rose coloured glasses, but it sure doesn't make things worse. I think it's a continual learning process to go through life as a non smoker because smoking has been such a big part of our lives in the past. For me the best part of 40 yrs!!!

    I certainly don't want to go back to the MISERY of smoking and I'm sure you don't either:confused:

    Keep strong xxx

  • Well here i am 9 mths into quitting smoking, its not anything iv ever done before. does it feel good ? no. do i miss smoking? on rare occasions the thought of smoking passes through my thoughts. am i happier? no but neither was i happy smoking, but at least i can breathe better. the only good thing to come out of quitting is the freedom from being controlled 24/7 by smoking and when i sit and think about that i realize this freedom is priceless. im sure my best days are yet to come. my life is filled with unhappiness at the moment ,my mum is on her last legs. i fell out with my younger sister ,we used to be best mates. im unemployed and feel like im on the scrapheap. whinge whine and whinge . probably all solvable niggles really. a cigarette would give me permission to avoid it all and fume under a cloud. but im not taking that route. iv put 3.5 stone on since quitting, its slowly dropping off very slowly. keeping on keeping on. things might get better but wont if i smoke im living in hope. good luck everybody.

    Mashx

    You have done fantasticly well to stay off the cigs with all of that going on in your life and I can relate to everything you are saying. Bloody well done to you I think most people would have caved in. I hope you can make it up with your sister life is too short to fall out especially with someone you used to be close to. Spend as much tiime as you can with your mum too. You are not on the scrap heap and I know you are very well respected on this forum and I always look forward to reading your posts. You are a very honest person and I wish you all the best.:)

  • im sure my best days are yet to come. Mashx

    Just how I feel Mash. But I do believe we are doing the hard work now, laying the foundations which will allow our lives to grow and grow and grow in the months and years ahead. And we will be so so glad that we did so.

    Sue

    x

  • ((((((((hugs)))))))) for Mash:D

  • Well said Haze I will second what you say.

    H

  • AAwww u guys youve really cheered me up and helped me see a glass half full and not nearly empty. thats how its been recently, running on empty with the brakes on, silly me. mags your so right smoking was misery and im not going back, this new lifestyle is gonna take some get used to after 40+ yrs of smoking, we must be made of tough stuff to do that, but also a bit stupid too. thanks haze for your kind words it is nice to be appreciated and thought so highly of, i promise i wont get a big head. @h w g . i agree this is the hard part, the unknown, the part with no script ,no maps. but its got to be better than where we were. someone once said if you dont know who u were u cant know who u will be, exciting and scary at the same time. thanks for the hugs Shojam and thanks Aitch.

    Mx

  • Chin up Mash mate!!! You're doing brilliant! Fingers crossed for you finding a job!!

    :D

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