OK, so I'm at day 1 again for what the third time this year already!!! I know pretty pathetic but I'm determined to keep trying!!! Last attempt I lasted two weeks and one day, but then had my sisters engagement party and gave in!!!
The majority of me really wants to quit, I'm sick of being a slave to the durries, but then a little bit of me wants to continue to smoke, the problem is when I'm really hanging for one that little bit of me seems to become a whole lot bigger!!! I know its just me trying to trick myself into have a fag, but I often give in to it, hence I'm already on my third quit attempt of the year!!!
I'm on the patches, they seem to take the edge off but I always seem to struggle at the two week mark, maybe I just get cocky and think I can just have one, or some for just one night. I know I can't do that but I continue to convince myself I can.
I've smoked about 20-25 a day for the past 15 years - that looks horrible when I see it written there - wow that's appox 109,500 ciggies I've smoked!! My poor body.
Hopefully this time is the last time.
Sorry to ramble on.
Goodluck to everyone else on their quits