It's been forever since I was here. Actually I last posted on a previous quit a couple of years ago. I quit so often I felt a bit embarrassed about posting here again because then you'd all know... I didn't stay quit (5 months that time around).
So, here I am, 92 days this time. And, in fairness I have been through quite a lot in those 92 days. My best friend's son was murdered, house move not going ahead, etc etc, you know, life. I haven't once given in and smoked. I still have a pack with 6 cigs in there, sitting on my bookcase, from the day I quit. But, I still want to. I still miss it.
I do get the physical crave pangs every now and then, perhaps 3 or 4 a day but those I can shut up with food (have gained 1 stone and counting). The worst ones though are the just missing the time I used to take to go and sit in my garden with a coffee, I liked doing that. I liked having the little bit of me time, the reward. I didn't even mind the cold or the rain (I have a lovely little gazebo), my garden place is lovely, but I can't go out there because if I do I just really want to smoke. I've tried just sitting there with a coffee but I crave and come right in. It was exactly this that got me started again the last time.
Do any of you have a particular thing which has been really tough for you? How have you got through it? I am determined this will be my last quit, I really don't want to have to ever do it again