so on day 24 and not going too well, all of your posts are keeping me sane but still finding it hard.
last night i had a barny with hubby(non smoker) and went completely off on one, told him i was gonna end up smoking again because he was being selfish!!!
told him i didnt know why i (insert rude word) married him in the first place?!?
then stormed out of the house with purse, lighter and door keys threatening i was'nt coming back while son (11yrs) had been woken to hear me slam door and storm off.
i made it to the end of the road where there is a bench which is diagonally opposite a pub and opposite a shop. sat on the bench deep breathing and calling hubby all sorts when a group of peeps came out of the pub to have a smoke.
i couldnt have been more tempted to ask for one and pay for it when.....i watched a plume of smoke drift into the air and thought s%d that im going home and going to bed!!!!
not been great today but have apologised my backside off and hubby back to very good support coach.
ever the struggle ever the winner