feel like such a failure

i quit smoking in january and stupidly started again in may,today would have been my 1st quit day but i fully had a go at my young daughter cause she was messing about and i felt very irritable i felt so guilty i was crying and ended up buying cigs to stop the irritation!! i feel like a failure for starting again and for snapping at my daughter :( any tips on how to calm the feeling of irritation would be welcome :) im hoping tomorrow goes better

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  • Hi fairy87, Don't beat yourself up over it I did exactly the same back in March for 4 months went back to fags, but you will know again when you feel ok to give up, and remember when you have an argument having a fag will not change anything because your problem will still be their, so you just have to be strong and keep yourself busy if you can any hobbies that you may have, go for a long walk, anything but the nico demon.

    Hope this helps and keep reading peoples posts because that helps too. Good luck in your journey to quit. We are all here to help and to support one another.

    Jacqui

    Quit: 14/11/11

    Proud member of the November N.O.P.E group.

    Live long and prosper.

  • thank you fleetwood you've made me feel a bit more positive :) im just gonna maybe try not to dwell on the cravings

  • Are you using anything to help with the cravings? Maybe some NRT or champix or something like that will give you the boost you need at the start.

    Lillie x

  • *hugs* I felt the same last week, and the week before that too...its only really this week that I've felt calm enough to take the plunge, and even now I'm between two minds cause I know week is going to be a hard one at work, then there's the Christmas parties and new year and suddenly were I'm January and another month of smoking has past...

    Its not so much that I want to stop smoking, more that i need to stop. I'm living in work residence and none of my friends here smoke. I don't think there is such a think as a weekend or sociable smoker as smoker no appear to be shunned and its becoming so anti social...

    Please don't think you're a failure, that is so far from the truth... Reading some of the other posts, my previous dry runs, and indeed yours, what we are embarking on is not an easy thing... The previous times I've tried to stop, which you may have guessed I'm classifying as dry runs, didn't go as anticipated, pressure from work, or worries about this or that prompted me to nip out and buy "just one more packet"... There will always be a reason to have just one more I think. I read somewhere that the thought of the next cigarette is often nicer than the cigarette itself. I know I've felt bad after I've smoked that "just one more". Its not a matter of being a failure, but closer to that initial hurdle of breaking the habit and more importantly the addiction...

    Have you anything to help or have you just gone cold turkey? I've a little mini stock of chocolate and loli-pops ;-) not sure if it'll help, bit when I feel the urge to have a smoke and don't, grab a little treat... And before you go there, January is going to be exercise month, a couple of the ressies here want to start playing squash...

    I guess what I'm trying to say is don't worry... I think the more you worry the more anxious you make yourself and then the irritation starts and you get snappy. The last time I seriously tried to stop, I was disciplined by my boss for my attitude. This time I'm just trying to not think too much about it, and try not to get anxious...

    I don't know if it'll help, but were all here for you :-). Hope tomorrow is a better day ;-)

  • im not using anything decided to go cold turkey because patches give me awful pains in my arms and champix made me feel very down :( its awful because i have the willpower but seem to lack the confidence to do it probably because i know im going to get the cravings which kinda scares me!! plus i know if i got the first day out of the way that'll be me on my way!! but i hate feeling angry and irritable and i suppose i have been making far too many excuses to smoke when im soo sick of smoking!!

    wish me luck for tomorrow and thanks everyone for the advice you all have made me feel better and gave me a bit more confidence xx:D

  • It might be worth trying the inhalator, it will certainly help with the cravings... I was just watching the end of a movie and now the strong urge to have a smoke has kicked in, instead a few pulls in the inhalator and cravings gone... Cold Turkey takes some will-power so your a stronger person than me and I've complete admiration for you... Thoughts are with you... You can do it ;-)

  • Hello Fairy

    I think anyone who quits cold turkey is very brave. I am not sure I could have done it.

    Camomile tea has calming and soothing qualities, may be you could try those and sucking on some mints (not at the same time though! :eek: :D) You could also try listening to some relaxation music.

    Good luck

    maxine

  • How you doing today Fairy? Don't beat your self up. I stopped for a long time and then foolishly started again

    I am on day 1 again, maybe this will be my time to kick it again:)

  • Hiya fairy... How's it going? I know what you mean about fear of the unexpected, or even in this case the expected... Reading through other posts and general info on what expect, I've a little dread, but if crunch day is today, tomorrow, next week, that feeling will still be there... But deep down, you know you can do it... If you have the will, you'll find the way - I don't think its cheating reading ahead, and from those post we know that the feelings of anger and irritability will pass and then you'll feel good ;-)

    Hope you're doing ok :-)

  • just be willing to give it a go for an hour ,a day and another day you only need to say no that one puff and once youve said no once say it again. If the baby cries let it. be open to it, babies cry, cry with him/her. scream into a pillow go into another room for a minute .just be willing to stop and if you dont succed try again . use this forum it helps. weve all found it hard but hard is only hard. practice makes permanent and its definately worth it.

    Mash x i used to get really irritable and angry but allowed myself to expeience them without trying to smoke them away ,they go away without smoke all by themself eventually.

  • i quit smoking in january and stupidly started again in may,today would have been my 1st quit day but i fully had a go at my young daughter cause she was messing about and i felt very irritable i felt so guilty i was crying and ended up buying cigs to stop the irritation!! i feel like a failure for starting again and for snapping at my daughter :( any tips on how to calm the feeling of irritation would be welcome :) im hoping tomorrow goes better

    Wow.. i could have wrote that myself!

    Everytime i give up, even for a few hours, this is how i am with my son and go back to them. so i feel for you :(

  • Over the years, I have quit several times, but always gone back on the fags again. Now I feel I must quit for health reasons.

    I gave up in March this year, then went away on holiday in June and started again!

    Every day I decide this will be the last pack (including today)! :rolleyes:

    Now I have found this forum, I am hoping I will gain the support I need.

    Tomorrow, will I be able to post my success story? :confused:

  • Hi Fairy , lots of us fail in our quit ....then feel very guilty / depressed about the thought that we have failed:(.

    The truth is that you want to stop , you will now be more determined the next time and in the grand scheme of things you will be more prepared .

    Dont let it get you down ! , stopping smoking is really easy ....I have done it 12 times now :p.

    This time is for keeps no matter what crap.... life throws at me and you will do it too.

    Keep smiling:D

    Trev

  • :mad:eeek what was that im being bombarded with tracking cookies.:eek:

  • I also failed..................will try again tomorrow! :(

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