Alright, I have been here before and said the same thing but today I sincerly feel it is right. Smoking is dont no end of damage, I am unfit, depressed and ashamed of doing it - every fag reinforces the failure.
Just some context, I had a day off yestersday and was thinking how long it has been since my first reak quit attempt - almost 18 months. Wow, if I had kept that quit going beyond the 3 months I would be in much much better shape. I lost the battle with just one smoke and quit again in November last year - that lasted until march.
Since March I have slowly gone back to the level of smoking I had before I stopped the first time.
Anyway, a reason I could identify for the depression was I missed 'not smoking' and the general recovery feeling associated with it. I want to get a clear head again, to be able to breath normally and not be shagged out after 10 mins of easy gardening and, when having a rest not reach for a cigarette. I also want to sleep normally and wake refreshed and happy. Above all I want to get fit again and not worry about dying/heart attacks and strokes.
Every smoke reinforced the bad things and raised the eventual health worries. If the smokes dont get me the stress of worrying about them will.
This in Day 1, I am using the same strategy as I used for the successful quits, a bit of NRT (patch), inhalor when I need and If all goes as well as it did the first time I will be off those in 2 weeks and just use straight CT.
I have downloaded and printed another copy of the freedom book and will use that when I need to reinforce why I stopped.
Edit: Is there a November 11 quit group?