I miss being a non-smoker

Hey everyone hope everyone is alright!

Been a long time since i posted here. I did quit for 10 weeks but the champix really messed with my head and after 4 days crying on the nhs direct line i decided to use chemicals to improve my state of mind, that being nicotine. I went to the shop and bought fags with the intention of smoking again to combat what ever the hell was going on.

Im still mildly feeling the effects of champix but tbh after initially making me feel better, the cigs havent really helped so im going to quit again. Im not scared or worried though because like another post on here somewhere said you do get a moment of revalation where you realise you dont actualy need to smoke :eek: and you wonder what the big deal was all the other previous quits. im not looking foward to the head fog for 6 days lol but it has to happen to get out the other side.

Im going to quit today. i have one roll ups worth of baccy left so gonna have that and say bye bye t these things that cost us a bomb and rob us of our health and youth! xxx

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  • hi nikki and big congrtulations on deciding to have another bash at it. I really hope this one sticks for you and i think lots of people have weird side effects with champix so its not for everyone.

    Are you using any NRT this time around or going CT? Have you read Allen Carrs book? it really helped me.

    I am a firm beleiver that there has to be an real heartfelt desire to quit to make it work. Its obvious that most people would like to give up but not many really desire to,. It has to come from deep within and if it does, i think its easy. i know i will never smoke again - i just 100% know it.

    Wishing you all the very best and keep talking.

    x ;):)

  • Hey thanks for the encouragment! :) and well done on your quit you sound very happy in your commitment to stay quit :o im doing it CT as i have tried NRT and just find it draggs it out and also makes going back to smoking more tempting tbh!

    I do really desire to quit its such a pointless activity, and it doesnt relax me it actualy creates anxiety in my belly funnily enough. so yeah pointless.

    Its been a few hours now and ofcourse my brain would love a ciggy right now, but i know in a week that empty stomache feeling will go :) xxx

  • Hi Nik im glad to hear that the cigs were a let down, i realized that myself 12 mths ago. it took a while for the penny to drop but after several goes at letting the vile ex back in i discovered i was getting nothing out of it apart from misery an bad skin and clothes that stunk like a skunks armpit on a tuesday. its a good sign when u realize that the thought of a cig is infinitely superior to one made from tobacco an paper. well done and keep going.

    M:cool:

  • Hey well done to you comming to your senses!! :) It is funny isnt it that this quiting thing is a learning process really. The addiction is a totally different thing from really what smoking is all about.

    I keep trying to explain to my mum that when the penny does drop its 10x easier (it took me about 15 months to 'get it') but she refers to her previous quits as '3 days of hell' and well being on day 3 now (i ended up quiting the day after this post) i would not describe it as hell at all, its the same as 3 days of smoking except i dont stink, my chest feels comfortable and i still have that £20 in my purse lol xxxx

  • Hey well done to you comming to your senses!! :) It is funny isnt it that this quiting thing is a learning process really. The addiction is a totally different thing from really what smoking is all about.

    I keep trying to explain to my mum that when the penny does drop its 10x easier (it took me about 15 months to 'get it') but she refers to her previous quits as '3 days of hell' and well being on day 3 now (i ended up quiting the day after this post) i would not describe it as hell at all, its the same as 3 days of smoking except i dont stink, my chest feels comfortable and i still have that £20 in my purse lol xxxx

    Hi Nikki, well done having another go. You are totally right. I do think the whole stop smoking thing is a learning process. If you crack it 1st time then wow but for all of us who are on repeated attempts, well every go is more knowledge and determination that goes with it to help us quit.

    I think for me this time (cold turkey too). I feel I have learnt more about the addiction and I want to prove to myself that my mind and will is stronger than this drug. It has not for one minute been easier, I have just been stronger in not giving in. Like magic I can say that I honestly believe no matter how hard the temptation is I will never smoke again. The penny had obviously dropped this time for me to.

  • Hi Nikki

    Great that you are back to quitting. I was hoping you'd come back as a couple of weeks ago I was reading through some older posts and read some of yours.

    Champix has helpd enormously in my quit, but I too have had some awful symptoms from it. I stopped taking it yesterday after taking it since 23/7 and am nervous that I might end up with an increase/exacerbation of cravings. Hope not though.

    Good luck with your quit and will watch out for your posts.

  • Hi Nikki

    Great that you are back to quitting. I was hoping you'd come back as a couple of weeks ago I was reading through some older posts and read some of yours.

    Champix has helpd enormously in my quit, but I too have had some awful symptoms from it. I stopped taking it yesterday after taking it since 23/7 and am nervous that I might end up with an increase/exacerbation of cravings. Hope not though.

    Good luck with your quit and will watch out for your posts.

    Hey Lauren, I'll be interested to know how you get on since coming off champix, I too am taking it and really worry how the end process works out. Congrats on your quit and keep going!!!

  • Hey Lauren, I'll be interested to know how you get on since coming off champix, I too am taking it and really worry how the end process works out. Congrats on your quit and keep going!!!

    Hi LBP - yes I was looking for posts about what happens when you stop taking champix and can't find a great deal about it, so I'll keep you posted!

    I found the champix a bit of a double edged sword - fab for helping with the quit, but brought with a whole host of unwelcome symptoms.

    Stick with it though as it really does help

  • Well done for giving it another go Nikki, everyone loves a trier! Hopefully this will be the one!

    Fi x

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