Hello Quitters - my last day in month 3.
I love reading the happy posts on here, seeing people celebrating milestones and feeling euphoric about the benefits of quitting. My experience hasn’t always been so joyous – partly because I am still physically in a mess, and partly because of a real sense of shame. I’m not ashamed of starting to smoke. I was a kid, doing what kids do. What shames me is why I let it go this far before stopping, despite so many warning shots along the way. I like to think I’m a fairly “sorted” person in other aspects of my life – so why does nicotine make you so bloody stupid?
But at least I’ve done it now, and for the first time, I managed to quit without becoming a neurotic, screeching, wallowing mess. Taking away the element of choice put me in a different mindset – it is irrelevant whether I want to smoke or not – I simply can’t do it any more. Being 51 has helped – I think I have finally become a grown-up. Champix took so much of the pain away from those early weeks. The other big difference has been this forum, where I found the loveliest group of virtual people I could ever have imagined. You told me to read read read, and I did. And it helped. Between you, you have made me laugh, helped me to understand and given me strength.
In truth, quitting has never been easier – better information, better drugs, and the wonders of the internet for support. It hasn’t been a breeze, but frankly, it hasn’t really been that difficult, either - not nearly as bad as I had feared.
So all you newbies – don’t cave in. Use whatever helps you to get through those first weeks, because it really doesn’t matter how you stop, only that you do. Try not to lapse, but if you do, don’t turn it into a relapse. This can be done, and the sooner you face it, the less you will suffer in the long term. That’s about it really.
So here I am, three months quit and not one puff - the only Camels I like now are the ones in the zoo (and even they stink a bit...). Over £1,000 saved, and an eye watering 3,500 fags not smoked. I don’t feel ecstatic right now, but I do know that finally, I have done the right thing for myself, and for that I am quietly pleased.
In the words of John Otway: Cor Baby, that’s really free! :cool: