As I head towards 4 years smoke free in September 2019, I am sharing again the out of blue, complacency and milestone cravings that can really knock us back when we encounter them especially when feeling solid and complacent in our smoke free journey. These can occur ANYTIME from 1 month to 10 years unfortunately but the good news is they become less severe and frequent as time passes by and easy to shrug off..... ✊🤛🤞💪
My first one occurred at 1 month, then 3 months, but the worst came along like a ton of bricks at 6 months and 9 months and finally the year. From time to time, I still get the random cravings but only last seconds as my mind can shrug them off quickly now.
It is Mr Nico's final attempts to get you back even if it is for just one brief fling. It did seem very tempting as I have come along way and done so well without him and the thought of just one won't do any harm played over and over in my almost repaired and re-wired heart and mind. I had to be very strong and stand my ground and not give in to his one brief fling. Sometimes he was persistent especially when nostalgic memories came flooding back of different times spent together, a song, a place, a chore, a celebration, a sad time, a stressful time. First Christmas, birthday, funeral, summer (that was a biggie with the first lawn cut, bbq, painting, gardening), holiday etc..... But........ NOPE I repeatedly told him and will continue to do so until he gets the message once and for all, he is never coming back into my life.
As we are recovering addicts, we most likely will have to deal with these for the rest of our lives but it is a small price to pay to be the happiest and healthiest I have been in years.
So, wherever you are on your journey, please beware and never take Mr Nico back, I sure as hell won't..👹