Bit of a special day for me today folks. I haven't had one puff of a cigarette for six months.
I feel pretty damn good. I confess to having the odd moment when I feel craves, but it's pretty easy to just give them a nod, and move on. Because I know what I've overcome before, they don't scare me.
And I have gained so much, I feel like a different person.
I feel immeasurably healthier. (I put on more than a stone due to stuffing my face with everything in sight for about three months - when people talked about healthy snacks I had to resist the temptation to stick an eclair up their nose - but I'm starting to lose it again now. Helps that I can cycle six miles a day with no ill effects!). I feel happier, calmer, more secure in myself, cleaner. I wish I could say richer, but as a rollie smoker I don't really notice any change there. Oh well.
I have had times in this six months when I have obsessed about smoking every waking minute, and I've been utterly miserable. People on the forum told me 'it will get better' and I clung to that but I can't say I always believed it. I thought perhaps I was just one of those people for whom that feeling of freedom would never come. Well, I'm here to tell you, they were right. It passes... all the bad stuff passes.
The secret is repeated conscious choice. Nothing else matters but that when the craving rears its ugly head, you face it down and choose life. One day at a time, this is an achievable thing for all of us.
Sorry to have rambled but I really do feel this is a special day. I won't post any more milestones now until they're dusting off my barstool in the penthouse.
One more thing. I couldn't possibly have made it this far without this forum and I thank each and every one of you for all the support and laughs and inspiration. Every time I looked at a tobacco display I felt like I had an invisible army of quitters standing behind me saying 'don't you dare!'.
Lots of love to all of you. Keep going!
PS I was an honorary Jan quitter even though I quit in December ... that means all the jan quitters will be coming up to their half year soon. Big shout out to you guys!!!