Today should be week 16, 112 days, 2240 fags not smoked and
I blipped on monday, bought 10 scrunched 8 half smoked 2 so
I woudnt call it a crave on Monday, it was more like a raving, screaming, get your arse to the shop now and feed me.
I tried to ride it, kept saying the "crave only lasts 5 minutes max so fend it off" 2 hours later , bought 10 and fought it for another half hour then gave in.
I have took some positives from it, wasnt nice, didnt ease my stress and have spent the rest of the week thinking about all the reasons why i dont want to go back to smoking.
I have been here before and if it wasnt for the positive posts on the forum I think i would have caved proper.
As it is I have been kinda ok the rest of the week, had a few more moments of Nic saying go on one more etc etc but ok and clean
I feel Im at the crossroads. Day 113 ahead, Day 4 to the left, or U turn back to the smog
Anyone thinking of ignoring nope - dont do it, wish I hadnt