Although I have only posted once before I read most days the members on here who are at the same stage as me, I live your doubts and worries and share your victories. Well done to all. Today is 4 weeks for me (technically a month??) and going ok (ish), no lapses but many (reducing) close calls.
One thing really frustrating me is how I have to keep breaking different habits that all revolve around smoking. I travel almost all the time with work, mainly far flung corners of the globe and it seems that every airrport/country/hotel holds a routine for me that involved smoking. Its like groundhog day that each place i visit as a non -smoker (can I class myself as that?) means I must break another long standing habit (friendship?). I almost feel that I am forced to grieve (cannot think of a better word) for cigarettes over and over again in each familiar place. Next week I will visit Brazil and am dreading going to certain places that I used to be a smoker in. In Italy last week I thought I must be the only person in the country not smoking. I just hope I stay stopped long enough to get all these places and habits out of my system but god its hard. Like having to start a new routine for each of the places I visit.
Anyway rant over but please keep posting everyone, it does help! Thank you.