5 months today, and that feels pretty good. Never thought I'd get here in a million years :o, but apart from the first few weeks, (oh and christmas and new year too) it's not been too bad. So I've put on nearly 2 stone :eek: but so what, I'm smoke free. I'm tackling the weight now and enrolled in SW a few weeks ago. Mum's doing ok ish at the moment, she's having an op to put permanent stents in today, and she should be home tomorrow. Hopefully they'll start the chemo next week. Mum becoming ill has made me more determined to stay a non smoker, and to loose weight (which is all on my tummy - this puts me at an increased risk of heart attack if I don't shift it). If I stay healthy, then hopefully my own kids will see me live to a ripe old age.
This forum has really helped me stay focussed on my quit. Thanks guys
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Very nice, Rachel! Congrats on your 5 month milestone, that's really great! Best wishes to your mom, and I hope you find a way to drop those pounds, good luck!
Nevertheless, tis a great whack of time Rachel filled with the ups and downs of life....this time without those pesky smokes. Congrats and I'm sure the various aspects will fall back into place for you. Best wishes for your mum too
you hit your 5 months while i was away so CONGRATS! so awesome and im so happy for ya!! feel sooooo proud! i hit 4 months on may 1st and i cant believe i really did it take care
Oh **** it...I'm so sorry guys.......I've smoked tonight. My mum saw the oncologist on weds, and the results wasn't good. She's got months rather than years left, and I haven't taken it too well. I got quite drunk tonight (as I did yesterday and the day before too.......my way of coping) and I've been battling over the last few days wether to smoke or not..........I wasn't strong enough to say no.......but hopefully I will be tomorrow
Oh Rachel, I am so sorry to hear about your Mum. I think it is understandable why you have ended up smoking. If you can, try not to today. Its not going to change anything. I appreciate that may not be possible and you need to do whatever you can to cope with what is happening.
You know we are all here if you need to talk to anyone.
I am so terribly sorry about your Mum; please don't go back to the fags. If need be, have a few now. DO NOT BUY A PACKAGE. You do not want to go back to full time and then starting at the dreaded day one withdrawals all over again. That thought pretty well keeps me on track. I am not going thru withdrawals and anothe 26 lb weight gain for quitting. Don't you either. Stay strong. Smoking will not help your Mum. Thoughts are with you Rachel
Oh Rachel, I'm really sorry, that must be a terrible blow. Nobody can blame you for a drunken slip under the circumstances, I think there are few of us who could withstand that one. Try to stay on the quit though; there's a tough time ahead and smoking won't help. But you know that.
Be strong, in everything. Thinking of you, and sending you love,
Thanks guys, you're all lovely. I haven't gone back to my old ways, and I think I just needed to get it out of my system. To be honest they were foul, and have not made me want to start again. I didn't inhale properly either, I couldn't as they made me want to choke. I also threw up, but this could have been due to the amount of alcohol I had. And you're all right, smoking won't help the situation, and my mum would be so disappointed if I started again, so I won't do that to her. Thanks again for all your support.
Karri, I just tried to pm you, but I can't. So I just wanted to say thank you for your message, you're very kind.
It is hard and I've not been coping, and I've been smashed out of my face since weds. So I've decided to do something about that too, as my kids need me to support them, not for me to be a drunken smoking mess. So no booze for me either. I have to do it, as I can feel myself pushing my self destruct button, and I don't want to go down that road again. Today is day 1. (oh, and I haven't smoked today either).
I'm so sorry to hear about your mum too, life can be very cruel.
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