I reached the two year smoke free mark on NYE... however, for some weeks I was having HUGE cravings... I think it was because I have had a bit of stress. Recently my (much loved) Ex contacted me after three years, but told me he has a child and has moved 100 miles away. I have found the whole thing very stressful because I still have very strong feelings for him.
anyway, I have tried to resist, but for the past 5 days I have been smoking. I have only had a total about 10, but its enough to have triggered the withdrawals in a BIG way because I have now stopped again. I have an inhalator which is stopping me from going to the shops and buying more, but I am very uncomfortable.
I was so proud of being two years smoke free... I can't believe I was so stupid, but I refuse to let it get out of hand.