No Smoking Day
2,584 members31,315 posts

Feeling confused, angry and want to smoke!

I am so fed up and angry, again. My father died a few months ago, and

his wife has just sold all his childhood toys from the 1930's- not a

word to me or my siblings, no choice of us having anything just 'got

rid of'. And that is despite my asking her verbally and in a card for

her please to let us see anything she is disposing of. It just feels

so sad, and so unjust. I so want to have a cigarette to, I dont'

know, get rid of my feelings I guess.

Pigs

6 Replies
oldestnewest

That is miserable, and so upsetting. I can imagine how you must feel. And I can imagine how feeling it would make you want to smoke. But would a fag in ANY WAY improve the situation? Nope. You'd have exactly the same confusion and anger, and be a smoker again too, after all your hard work.

I'm so sorry for your loss. Hope you find peace soon. x

Reply

Hi Pigs,

Sorry to hear of your loss. I can understand how you must feel right now. I would be livid if that happened to me. These are things you can never replace & are a reminder of our loved ones.

You know a cigarette won't change any of this & I can quite understand that you want one, so would I. Just think how proud your father must be of you & I am sure he would not want you to break your quit now.

Gaynor xx

Reply

I am so fed up and angry, again. My father died a few months ago, and

his wife has just sold all his childhood toys from the 1930's- not a

word to me or my siblings, no choice of us having anything just 'got

rid of'. And that is despite my asking her verbally and in a card for

her please to let us see anything she is disposing of. It just feels

so sad, and so unjust. I so want to have a cigarette to, I dont'

know, get rid of my feelings I guess.

Pigs

Forget the cigs, what you need is to go round there and twat her!!!!:mad:

Reply

oh that is so hard, I have known people who are bereeaved to wear their loved ones clothes- for your loss not to be acknowledged is awful. But I am guessing father's wife was never particularly sympatico to you, and men can be absolutelty blind to that in their partners. I think he will be watching and knowing now, and you can connect with that and feel close to his spirit- possessions are meaningless.

Please dont smoke- if you do, for a little while you will satisfactoruily be able to blsame her for it but the truth that you did it will get you in the end.

Thoughts:(

Reply

Thank you all so much, I am very proud to be able to say I haven't smoked. I know it would just taste foul now, and I would so regret it. I have to admit I have fantasies about punching her on her extraordinarily ugly nose!!! I've never reallly liked the woman, but have really tried hard because she did give him a new companion after my mother died. Not actually sure he even liked her much!! But now its really hard to continue to be 'nice' when she is such a thoughtless, unempathic and selfish cow!! Sorry, turning into a rant here! Off to have a nice glass of chilled white wine!

Take care, and keep smoke free!

Pigsx

Reply

Well done on staying smokefree Pigs.

Perhaps you should ask her why she didn't give you and your siblings the opportunity to see/have your father's things and see how she wriggles out of that one.

Take care and keep up the good work.

Reply

You may also like...