I am so fed up and angry, again. My father died a few months ago, and
his wife has just sold all his childhood toys from the 1930's- not a
word to me or my siblings, no choice of us having anything just 'got
rid of'. And that is despite my asking her verbally and in a card for
her please to let us see anything she is disposing of. It just feels
so sad, and so unjust. I so want to have a cigarette to, I dont'
know, get rid of my feelings I guess.