just thought I would check in. Still not smoking, but came close last night. Out with work colleagues that I don't know well, and would have classed them as non smokers. But a group of them kept going outside for cigs! The dark horses. Anyway, by the end of the night, I was suffering really badly. Came home and was really ratty to the bf, who smokes, but I didn't give in! This morning I feel like I came so close to wanting to smoke that I actually did, if you know what I mean. It is horrible as if my quit is in serious jeopardy. My boat is letting on water and time to bail out fast! Also , have only a tiny patch to put on today, and it my bf's birthday today, so party tonight full of smokers!! A padded cell beckons! I have to keep calm and take it one day at a time. Yesterday was hard, maybe I'll be O.k tonight. I was actually quite proud that I wasn't smoking last night, but felt so weak at the same time. Was very tired and stressed, ideal conditions for a blip, I know. Does anyone else ever feel like this, like it is all going horribly wrong?