Week three for me

Here are the Stats (that I'm more than a little bit proud of)

I have been quit for 3 Weeks, 2 Days, 10 hours, 2 minutes and 58 seconds (23 days). I have saved £100.02 by not smoking 374 cigarettes. I have saved 1 Day, 7 hours and 10 minutes of my life. My Quit Date: 17/11/2010 22:30

Cool, eh?

I've put on a ton of weight so I'm going back to slimming world on Tuesday, probably not for long but just until I get my focus, routine and 'stuff' back again.

I'm a little disorganised which is getting my goat a bit. For the past 20 years of my life everything was after or before a cigarette. Now I don't have that marker I've just about stopped doing pretty much anything :D I feel like my mojo has temporarily gone but I'm sure it will return.

Had a few difficult days, got WAY over emotional about something on Wednesday and was crying, sobbing, snot flying, wailing mess about it which isn't usually like me either - but I guess it's all about adjusting.

So for the last few days I've craved a bit. There have been times where I've come close, but in all honestly couldn't justify smoking again so didn't. I've come so far, it hasn't killed me but I would rather not go through all this again....and one cigarette is all it would take to return me to day one, not just chronologically speaking, but psychologicaly, emotionaly, physicaly etc.

Took my Mum shopping yesterday and I had no urge to ask her for a cigarette. Instead it made me feel sorry for my OH as I was waiting in rather smelly, dank areas of the carpark while she dosed herself and I'm thinking 'Bloody hurry up it stinks here and I want to get shopping'. My poor OH has put up with that for years!

Talking of him, I'm quite pleased with him really. When I was caving I spoke to him and he was like - Look it's up to you, if you feel you need to smoke then smoke, but all I will say is you've come a long way that's all, but if you need to then do it.

I didn't.

In the past, because he has never smoked, I felt he's taken over my quit and it's become his. He hasn't this time. He handed it back to me and it worked. I took control back of my own quit and continued instead of smoking out of some misplaced defiance. (Yes, I am a grown up but only some parts of me actually are - my teenage self is still very alive and kicking :D).

So...onward and upward, it's all good. Sorry this is so long but I've had a manic week and haven't been on, we also swapped provider so I was internet-less for a whole day!! Felt like a lifetime.

Oh, something else as well. Had a stinking thick cold and got over it, within a week, no antibiotics as it never developed and remained just a cold and I didn't need to touch my inhalers once. First time in years that has happened....years and years!!

Good luck me, good luck you - let's all keep going. xx

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  • wow well done you :D what a brill read your sounding so positive:) i know what you mean about the marker part as i keep thinking every now and again im still missing something especially when im getting ready to go out and when i am out i keep picking my bag up and then realising why and then putting it back down again :rolleyes: and im not taking so long to do anything now as even though i stop for a coffee break its not as long as it used to be anymore im even getting in the habit now of not getting out my nicorette when im on the phone as thats when i missed my ciggy the most

    i reached 6 weeks on thrusday which im really pleased about :)

  • Six weeks Carol! Impressive!

    It's weird isn't it? Sometimes I'll stand in the kitchen absolutely stock still like I'm in a trance because I feel I should be doing something but I'm paralysed and can't remember what that is. I've realised now that the thing I think I should do but have forgotten - is smoking.

    Like I said, I'm sure I'll get my mojo back soon. All this time I'm wasting in a pensive reverie is getting right up my nose :D

    Cheers, Michael. Right back atcha :)

  • Here are the Stats (that I'm more than a little bit proud of)

    I have been quit for 3 Weeks, 2 Days, 10 hours, 2 minutes and 58 seconds (23 days). I have saved £100.02 by not smoking 374 cigarettes. I have saved 1 Day, 7 hours and 10 minutes of my life. My Quit Date: 17/11/2010 22:30

    Cool, eh?

    Not surprised your proud, you should be xx

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