Good morning everyone.
Here i am again, this is Day 21~ Week 3. Today i am now at the end of week 3, the start of week 4 and then i will be getting closer to the 1st Month which for me will be on the 24th Nov, 10 days away yet
I have finally read the Allen Carr EASYWAY book, i started that yesterday afternoon and have just finished it. I cant believe i never thought of those things before but it was so weird in that my reasons this time are just so in your face in that book. I would seriously recomend to people buying a copy and reading it because it does make a lot of sense.
I have known for a long long time that i did not want to smoke, the fact it did nothing for me when i did light up and when i would want to inhale i would look at it and think WTF am i doing, i dont need this stuff. :confused:
I know that this time its for keeps because i dont want to be a slave to the Nico Monster anymore. He gives me nothing but grief, its not like when im angry he helps becasue he does nothing, he doe not help when im stressed infact he makes it worse. He does not numb the pain as that is all a gimick you know, i never wanted to get hooked on those ciggies and they have ruled my life for 20 years and now im biting back and telling MR NICO to BOG OFF.
I am not giving up anything as i was not getting anything from it anyhow. As the book says its like it makes you into its slave which is so so true. Why do we panic when we know we want to stop smoking, as the book says its FEAR.
Fear of not knowing, fear of what will i do or how will i cope without my little buddy again its all rubbish. If you know you want to stop then you can. You stop because you want to and not because others make it there mission to belittle you and make you feel awkward.
I am going out this Saturday (20th) and i am looking forward to it now, mainly because the friends i am going out with are both still smokers and so it will be our first get together since i stopped last month. It will be interesting to see how i cope and yet i know that i should take pity on these guys because the chances are they dont want to smoke but the nicomonster has them lured in and they dont know how to tell him to leave them alone. I will be like a Chesire Cat and smirk if you like when they have to leave the table to get there fix and myself & my OH can stay in the warm. Lovelly
I feel elated to think that finally i am FREE from the restraints that smoking gives to a person. I never really thought of myself as a DRUG ADDICT when i smoked, maybe because its so easy to buy cigs, they have not been banned as such and they are just such common place out there in society. I also never really thought of them as bad which i suppose i should have, i also cant honestly say that I ENJOYED LIGHTING UP AND TAKING A PUFF, again its the DRUGs ADDICTIVE MODE WORKING to make you buy more and then you have to smoke them. If you think about it we are all made to feel silly and like an outcast now and if you ask yourself why are you smoking then in all honesty it should be because you cant stop.................WRONG................You can. Allen Carrs book just clarified for me why i have chosen to not smoke anymore. I hated doing it, i hated the smell, the taste, the rejection from others, the outcasting at every avenue because there will soon be no place that a smoker can go to and light up, the spiralling cost that from 1995 a pack of 20 cost about £2 and now your looking at almost 3x that for a pack of 20 yet we all have to have them, we feel we cant cope without them. What on earth will we do if we dont have our smokes, i will tell ya what we all will live again and not be slaves to the NICOMONSTER and the Tabacco Industry, thats what!
I will try and save some of the money after Christmas that i have not spent on cigs and then treat my OH & I to something in the New Year. He gave up in Jan 2006, thats was my last attempt and after 3-4 weeks i ended up going back on to the nasty things. I was not ready then, well i felt like i was giving up my best mate and i did not know how to cope so that was my biggest mistake, i thought i was punishing myself when clearly if you get nothing out of the cig then your not giving up anything. I know now that its the NICOTINE that does it to us. We are all so hooked on the damn stuff that we keep going back for more, thats why i am glad that the Champix worked for me but i am even more glad that i decided to stop the Champix and go CT, that was I HAVE NO NICOTINE WHAT SO EVER IN MY BODY NOW and so can move on and away from the DRUG ADDICTION.
As for the habit again thats the Nicotine lurring you in. I also dont substitute sweets or anything for the loss of a ciggy, i think as the book says that by doing that your prolonging the feeling that your giving up something when in all honesty your not because we dont need it, the only thing i have done is take up knitting as i feel that for the first few days we need to keep occupied and that for me worked.
Heres my stats for Week 3- Day 21
I have been quit for 3 Weeks, 4 hours, 38 minutes and 19 seconds (21 days).
I have saved £90.96 by not smoking 360 cigarettes.
I have saved 1 Day and 6 hours of my life.
Anyhow, enjoy your life as a Non Smoker as i intend to do. Keep up the good work. If you get a thought just remember it does nothing for you and you will get nothing from it.