My app tells me I've reached 21 days, 3 hours and 35 minutes without smoking a single cigarette!
I've reached my next goal of 21 days which I'd believed would finally release me from my bad habit. (21 days to form a habit and 21 days to un form a habit apparently).
Well I've just discovered that this is NOT true at all! For the smoking habit anyway. And for me anyway. Maybe they meant 21 months? Or 21 years?
The habit still lingers in my mind and I still mentally reach for a cigarette for every situation, every celebration and every hint of stress.
I have done this before and I lasted ten whole years but I don't remember when I reached the point where I DIDN'T automatically think of a smoke as the answer for everything.
But I did get there because I went through all sorts of stuff in those ten years and I don't remember yearning for a cigarette for all of that time.
My positives for today and this milestone are: fresh breath; clean smelling hair; improved sense of smell and taste - not always a good thing ; the knowledge that my health is improving (even though I can't say I've noticed it) ; no more feelings of guilt; the savings my app tells me I've made already, in money and time ;
Unfortunately there are some negatives that I need to overcome: with my husband still smoking there's definitely a small rift between us now. No more happy chats in the garden whilst we puffed away together. I do miss that. It's something we can't share anymore.
And then there's all the eating.......my clothes are getting tight and I feel uncomfortable.
But hey, I've done three weeks. Not going to give in now