Well today me and my partner celebrate 100 days smoke free, a double celebration as he is also 49 today (although he'd kill me for saying that).
Well where do I start, I am very relieved to get here, never thought I would, still dont know where this quit will take me (all the way I hope) and I can honestly say only you guys on here understand what I mean when I say how difficult at times this has been!
When we first quit those initial few weeks were full of elation, yes it was very hard but the novelty got us through and it was a new and exciting time. At weeks 6-8 we both went through an immensly difficult time, we were sure we would cave in, but clung on and it got better.
Well anyone who saw my 'terrible threes' thread can see that on completing 3months things became very difficult again, for me especially! Even up to now I am finding this very very hard, the last week or so I have been terribly irritable, me and OH have had several unnecessary squabbles, we dont normally argue but think we have both been festering and dealing with the re-appearance of cravings and the constant feeling we are missing something!
The only thing that has prevented me getting cigarettes is the thought that I will not get that 'relief' I am looking for until I become addicted again which could be a couple of packs down the line. It's stupid, it makes me so cross that I can be reduced to this stroppy, teary, teenage like person occasionally, I am not a very religious person but I have been praying that both me and OH get out the other side of this dark tunnel, think we are made of the right stuff.........I hope!
Well this forum has been a great help to me, I wish I could get on more often to congratulate everyone with their milestones and help newer people, sorry I have to fight for the computer in my house! But to everyone on this journey, well done, it is one heck of a challenge, but one with tremendous rewards!
My OH by the way who is 49 today, is looking years younger since his quit, his health was a worry to me as he is quite a bit older than me and was starting to look ashen faced and generally unwell, he is now glowing and looks so much more healthy, he has stopped getting chest pressure which was a morning problem and he can out run me, in fact he doesn't stop I call him forrest gump.
I no longer feel guilty for inflicting smoky breath on my child, we are better off financially, I just hope that once through this difficult stage we can enjoy life to the full without thinking of cigarettes, that is my dream!!
Best wishes to everyone on this road to recovery