100 days today.......Clinging on!!

Hello Everyone,

Well today me and my partner celebrate 100 days smoke free, a double celebration as he is also 49 today (although he'd kill me for saying that).

Well where do I start, I am very relieved to get here, never thought I would, still dont know where this quit will take me (all the way I hope) and I can honestly say only you guys on here understand what I mean when I say how difficult at times this has been!

When we first quit those initial few weeks were full of elation, yes it was very hard but the novelty got us through and it was a new and exciting time. At weeks 6-8 we both went through an immensly difficult time, we were sure we would cave in, but clung on and it got better.

Well anyone who saw my 'terrible threes' thread can see that on completing 3months things became very difficult again, for me especially! Even up to now I am finding this very very hard, the last week or so I have been terribly irritable, me and OH have had several unnecessary squabbles, we dont normally argue but think we have both been festering and dealing with the re-appearance of cravings and the constant feeling we are missing something!

The only thing that has prevented me getting cigarettes is the thought that I will not get that 'relief' I am looking for until I become addicted again which could be a couple of packs down the line. It's stupid, it makes me so cross that I can be reduced to this stroppy, teary, teenage like person occasionally, I am not a very religious person but I have been praying that both me and OH get out the other side of this dark tunnel, think we are made of the right stuff.........I hope!

Well this forum has been a great help to me, I wish I could get on more often to congratulate everyone with their milestones and help newer people, sorry I have to fight for the computer in my house! But to everyone on this journey, well done, it is one heck of a challenge, but one with tremendous rewards!

My OH by the way who is 49 today, is looking years younger since his quit, his health was a worry to me as he is quite a bit older than me and was starting to look ashen faced and generally unwell, he is now glowing and looks so much more healthy, he has stopped getting chest pressure which was a morning problem and he can out run me, in fact he doesn't stop I call him forrest gump.

I no longer feel guilty for inflicting smoky breath on my child, we are better off financially, I just hope that once through this difficult stage we can enjoy life to the full without thinking of cigarettes, that is my dream!!

Best wishes to everyone on this road to recovery

Shelly xx

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  • Hello Everyone,

    Well today me and my partner celebrate 100 days smoke free, a double celebration as he is also 49 today (although he'd kill me for saying that).

    Well where do I start, I am very relieved to get here, never thought I would, still dont know where this quit will take me (all the way I hope) and I can honestly say only you guys on here understand what I mean when I say how difficult at times this has been!

    When we first quit those initial few weeks were full of elation, yes it was very hard but the novelty got us through and it was a new and exciting time. At weeks 6-8 we both went through an immensly difficult time, we were sure we would cave in, but clung on and it got better.

    Well anyone who saw my 'terrible threes' thread can see that on completing 3months things became very difficult again, for me especially! Even up to now I am finding this very very hard, the last week or so I have been terribly irritable, me and OH have had several unnecessary squabbles, we dont normally argue but think we have both been festering and dealing with the re-appearance of cravings and the constant feeling we are missing something!

    The only thing that has prevented me getting cigarettes is the thought that I will not get that 'relief' I am looking for until I become addicted again which could be a couple of packs down the line. It's stupid, it makes me so cross that I can be reduced to this stroppy, teary, teenage like person occasionally, I am not a very religious person but I have been praying that both me and OH get out the other side of this dark tunnel, think we are made of the right stuff.........I hope!

    Well this forum has been a great help to me, I wish I could get on more often to congratulate everyone with their milestones and help newer people, sorry I have to fight for the computer in my house! But to everyone on this journey, well done, it is one heck of a challenge, but one with tremendous rewards!

    My OH by the way who is 49 today, is looking years younger since his quit, his health was a worry to me as he is quite a bit older than me and was starting to look ashen faced and generally unwell, he is now glowing and looks so much more healthy, he has stopped getting chest pressure which was a morning problem and he can out run me, in fact he doesn't stop I call him forrest gump.

    I no longer feel guilty for inflicting smoky breath on my child, we are better off financially, I just hope that once through this difficult stage we can enjoy life to the full without thinking of cigarettes, that is my dream!!

    Best wishes to everyone on this road to recovery

    Shelly xx

    Hi Shelly

    huge congratulations to you and your partner hope you both have a lovely day ...100 days is a brilliant milestone my personal favourite as you feel it is a bridge you have finally crossed over ...here's to your next 100 days and a happy birthday to your partner too ......:)

  • Hi, I'm only a couple of days behind you and have had exactly the same things recently...been really tired and extremely stroppy...which I'm hoping will go away pretty soon...

    Great, encouraging post though and good to read xx

    Keep up the good work x

  • Shelly, many congratulations to you and your partner (happy birthday also). 100 days is certainly a great achievement which you must be extremely proud about.

    It is strange that we should still experience tough moments, but I think the change in seasons, eg. sitting outside in the sun and just people generally spending more time out etc. makes a difference. But it's all triggers and experiences, and once we get used to spending more time outside things will settle down.

    Keep positive and pushing onwards, what the two of you have achieved is brilliant, and it will get better and better.

    Lorraine :)

  • I can totally sympathise. Really feels like I'm running in treacle here :(

    But hey, we have the same quit date and I'm just about hanging on, though like you I've found the last few weeks hell! So here's to 100 days - glad someone's counting! :D

  • first off - a huge congratulations on 100 days quit:D

    that is one hell of a milestone-for both of you.often think given how cranky I am -how much more difficult it must be for partners to quit together.

    both irritable and cravy -and not all at the same time. even bigger congrats Shelly and the birthday lad :)

    I think I read a quote somewhere by C S Lewis [narnia novels fame]-he said

    we read so that we dont feel alone .

    Bingo your post Shelly.

    you will do this I know in my heart .

    a birthday kiss for the hubs.xx

    any excuse I know :o:o

  • Hey shelly

    looking good at 100 days......You keep on clinging on because you now know it will be all worth it......be good ok:)

    money for me too is a big incentive ..wen i think i want one all my other reasons go out the window ..that one stays right at the front of my dizzy head:D

    Happy birthday to shellys OH xxx Well done to you both xxx

  • Hi Shelly

    Hope you've managed to wriggle out of the stars and stripes number by now :D

    What can I say that hasn't already been said apart from you're a star- well done for staying strong - both you and your OH - it would be so easy to say 'sod it let's have a fag' but you haven't. I have to fight for the computer as well but I must fight dirtier :eek::)

    Give yourself a huge pat on the back and stay clinging on :p

  • awwww a big well done to you and your OH Shelley. I did read your 3 month post, I'm glad it is almost behind you now......onwards and upwards lol

  • Thank you very muchly EVERYBODY for your supportive messages and well wishes, means a LOT, in fact right now it is the difference between me being a non smoker or running down to the garage to try and relieve what seems to be a serious case of the DT's!!

    Please tell me how I can wake up and be fine and feel quite positive and hopeful...................then somehow I can't pinpoint the moment it happens but everything seems to collapse around me, I crave, do I crave the nicotene? Or do I crave the few minutes escapism that cigarette gives me?

    It seems since I quit smoking, everybody wants a piece of me, I feel in a permanent daze and state of confusion, loss of concentration, EATING constantly, miserable! Please remind me why I am doing this again!

    I am so sorry to ramble, especially sorry to newer quitters, its just easier to vent off here rather than shouting at OH or the dog!!

    Thank you again xx

  • Thanks Chrissie, appreciate your positivity! I so hear you in that is does get easier, I just have to believe that otherwise theres no point to this is there? Cant believe I am going through this to be honest, I have never felt so s**t my whole life, dont want to fail this quit, but want to end this misery I am going through, feel like my life is on hold, I am someone who usually says "life is for living, do what makes you happy".......does that mean I should be smoking or is it the bloody illusion again?!

    I know you have had a hard time, what happened to you do you think it was pure circumstantial or were you building up to it, I mean thinking of fags for a while beforehand? I think nicodemon is telling me theres no point trying to quit anymore as I will fail at some point down the line so end the misery now!

    Oh the mind can play terrible tricks cant it :(

  • Thanks Chrissie, luckily for me last night I found the moan thread so that kept me busy, amazing, a good old whinge makes you feel heaps better!

    One thing that keeps me going is the amount of people on here who have maybe 'blipped' or had several quit attempts but seem to want to jump straight back into quitting, so going back to fags really cant be that pleasurable! Also I know if I started again it would take me maybe years to conjure up enough strength to quit again, so gonna try so hard to fight this, decided I need to go back to the initial websites that helped me in the beginning.......whyquit etc and educate myself even more and kick myself up the bum with exercise, Oh yeah and the diet starts next week too!!

    10 days will be the 4 month mark for me and I hope to be posting about how GREAT I feel, Thanks Guys xx

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