I have been doing so well, but the combination of my anti social neighbours and the arrival of my Italian boyfriend with a sdcuctive packet of Camel Lites is testing me to the limits. My bf went out for a bit and left the packet on the table. I had not yet put the patch on and truly believed I would smoke one. sinply no doubt about it. But I knew how lousy I would feel, so i distracted myself and made some tea, ate a yoghurt and came onto the forum. I think I just fought and won a serious craving!!! but I fear the next one wont be long. weekends are truly a nightmare. The only reason I am still here is that no alcohol has touched my lips. I am too scared to let my guard down at all.
My bf is an exception to the rule in that he is very supportive and wants to give up too. He is not a heavy smoker, I am. I really want to do this but today is the first day I can see failure looming and laughing in my face.
Thanks so much for all your comments and support. I would seriously crack if I couldnt tell fellow quitters how awful it is and to hear your struggles as well. I just hope it gets easier as I seriously will not make it otherwise. I put the patch on and now i feel sick, well at least I dont want to smoke now!!
Sorry for being so negative. I feel much better now. I think.
Today the glass is half empty, tomorrow it will be half full.
i will NOT smoke today.