Yay... one year finally.... Penthouse better be ready for me
At the beginning of my quit all I could think of was ‘will I ever feel normal again’. I feel great now and I thought to share my last year with those of you who are just starting this journey and maybe wondering the same.
1st month: Hell for me. Some people quit the ‘easy way’, well not me! I was miserable, had a blip on day 12 which made things worse, struggled, and was just pitiful. I did what I could to stay sane but it was hard. Almost threw in the towel end of the month when something lifted and the intensity of my misery lessened.
Month 2: Was better and less painful but still plenty of craves. Continued to sleep badly, moody, but torture had turned into just mild depression and the occasional tantrum. Despite my moments, I started to think that maybe, just maybe I could do this.
Month 3: Read and posted on the forum like mad, always wishing I would stop thinking of smoking already. Pretty moody, desperately trying to find things to fill the void, and still sleeping poorly but started to have the occasional good day.
Month 4: NSD was a lifeline... Posted tons still in month 4, reading, supporting, and the craves started to fade. Things were not quite easy but definitely manageable. Reading and posting on the forum helped tons to reprogram my thinking. Started to be more positive and had more than just the ‘occasional’ good day.
Month 5: Thinking I’ve got a solid quit going when a big crave hits (triggered by some event)... could have easily started again but instead got back on NSD and continued to read, post, support. Overall that month there were more good than bad days.
Month 6/7: Excited about being quit, able to see what an addict I was and how much better life is not being controlled by fags, more confident, plenty of thoughts of smoking still but feeling very positive. Started exercising (a lot) and that helped, too.
Month 8: A crave hits out of nowhere (just one that month) and I finally get the ‘don’t ever be complacent’ bit.
Month 9/10: No problems, thoughts of smoking come and go quickly and only seldom at that.
Month 11: Finally a day I didn’t think of them at all and plenty more followed.
Long post to make a simple point... I so struggled, there was nothing easy about my quit, but now such a relatively short time later, I don’t even think of them at all! So you newbies have faith. The prize of my freedom was a few months of discomfort... glad I payed up cause life as a non-smoker is way better! bella xx