Struggling with my demon

Hi everyone,

Well this certainly isn't my first time at Day 1. So hello to Day 1 yet again!

I don't know what's gone wrong with me lately. I've had days where I haven't had any cigarettes, days where I've had one or two and days where I've said, "sod it" and had 10 with a bottle of red wine.

My job is particularly stressful this time of year, getting ready for the Christmas rush, so that hasn't helped.

So I'm not setting myself any major goals here. All I'm going to say is that today, I choose not to smoke. And hopefully tomorrow I will also choose not to smoke.

PP xx

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  • How odd, I was just thinking about you this morning. Nearly sent you an email.

    Good to see you back, I got through the first 2 weeks "choosing not to smoke today, this hour, for the next 10 mins".

    Ok you don't need me to tell you how its going to be, and you don't need me telling you to READ, READ, READ, so I will not do any of that:eek:

    At what time did you smoke your last fag, is day 1 nearly over?

    Whatever happens know we are all here, how about you promise to post here before you have a fag, and if we can't stop you, you then go ahead?

    Sending you PMA by the truck load, and a huge Penguin hug.

    3513

  • Hi everyone,

    Well this certainly isn't my first time at Day 1. So hello to Day 1 yet again!

    I don't know what's gone wrong with me lately. I've had days where I haven't had any cigarettes, days where I've had one or two and days where I've said, "sod it" and had 10 with a bottle of red wine.

    My job is particularly stressful this time of year, getting ready for the Christmas rush, so that hasn't helped.

    So I'm not setting myself any major goals here. All I'm going to say is that today, I choose not to smoke. And hopefully tomorrow I will also choose not to smoke.

    PP xx

    good luck PP :)

  • Pingu,

    I'm sorry to see that you are struggling a bit...but, no worries, it's your quit and you'll know that you can get good support here.

    Bev has a point and I'm sure you are aware of the 'post if you are struggling but have to wait until you get 5 replies'. .

    As a neat twist on the above how about if you are struggling you have to come and provide 6 support posts....they have to be positive too. Try that for a while. A recent conversation raised awareness that when we support each other we somehow affirm the key messages about stopping. Even when struggling or not fully attentive the constant repitition helps to solidify the base for a strong quit.

    Good to see you back on the boards,

    Cav

  • Totally understand!

    Hi

    Just wanted to say I can totally understand. I too have struggled over the last few weeks, stopping, starting and getting very grumpy with myself!

    Good luck on this quit, hope it gets easier for you

  • You know what Im going to say, so I wont, but you know where we are if you need us. No judgements from us

  • Hi PP :)

    Sorry you're struggling with day one

    just take a day at a time and try not to look to far ahead as that can be daunting early in a quit

    Love

    Marg xxx

  • Thanks guys,

    I know I can do this. I'm an intelligent woman and I know all the risks of being a smoker.

    Today I was out walking the dog and felt my breath wheeze as I strode up a hill (the result of last night's cigarettes)

    BUT I am an addict. If I had the money I would ship myself off to a desert island for a month or 2 where there's no off license....Am keeping myself under house arrest tonight

  • Well lucky for you there seems to be lots of entertainment around here tonight:eek:

  • Why is it there are never any attractive men in pawn though?

    The one in "the other symptoms of quitting" just looks confused in a Lenny from "Of Mice and Men" way!

  • wotcha penguin. Good luck with it all and everything.

  • Thanks guys,

    I know I can do this. I'm an intelligent woman and I know all the risks of being a smoker.

    Today I was out walking the dog and felt my breath wheeze as I strode up a hill (the result of last night's cigarettes)

    BUT I am an addict. If I had the money I would ship myself off to a desert island for a month or 2 where there's no off license....Am keeping myself under house arrest tonight

    Sorry for late reply. I think everyone on here relates to this, non of us are stupid (well I do have my moments:o) and everyone of us know how you feel. I really admire your bravery as I would not have posted this, so all ready you are a better woman than me.

    It took me 12 months to actually decide to give up and when I made that decision I honestly knew I will not smoke again, but my 'head' was in the right place to do this, yours is not but you will get there because you are a very very strong lady. Don't beat yourself up, you will give up it may just time a little more time than you thought my love:)

    xx huge hug xx:)

  • hi pp, sorry to hear what happend but good luck x

  • So I'm not setting myself any major goals here. All I'm going to say is that today, I choose not to smoke. And hopefully tomorrow I will also choose not to smoke.

    PP xx

    Hey Pingu,

    I missed you..... glad you've come back and I hope you get things sorted..... get back to reading, posting, and try to find it within yourself to make a decision.

    I really feel you give yourself too much of an out with what you say in above lines.....'not setting major goal' and 'hopefully I won't choose to smoke'........... when you approach a quit like that, chances are really high you will smoke again as you've not made that commitment. Just think about it...... instead of bouncing back and forth between smoking and not, I suggest putting your energies into trying to understand what is going on and coming up with a solution/plan.....

    Very happy you're back ;)

  • Hey PP...welcome back:D .......you will do this.....you know what to do.....one day at a time ......and dont beat yourself up over this.....you will get there.....so post often and the very best of luck to you.:)

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