Hi all, well I'm on day three and my body has decided to turn inside out. Aches pains and much sneezing and sniffling. My brain has ceased to function in any useful way and I've become the worst boyfriend in the world - grumpy, neurotic, basically a whining mess of a human being! The love of my life has pledged support and is an amazing rock, but I keep snapping at her, then I feel guilty as hell and angry with myself which just makes me feel grumpier and more depressed. I don't feel like me. When I woke up this morning I would have given anything for a time machine just to go back, find my 15 year old self and shove that first cigarette where the sun doesn't shine. What an idiot!!!!
Every time I've quit smoking in the past it's the depression and loss of sense of my usual positive self that gets me. Last time I got to three weeks and it hadn't abated.
I'm on 14mg patches as I was smoking 10 - 15 a day, but they don't seem to be working which is both frustrating and scary, scary because if I feel like this now then what's cold turkey gonna be like?
I'm trying my best to take it a day at a time, but I feel like I'm losing the plot!!
Anyone else feel like this?