Okay.......so the last two nights my kids have been piling in our bed in the middle of the night.....I am not getting a lot of sleep and I am a complete grouch today. I feel super guilty because I have been very testy with my children. I yelled them a few times today for minor things. When I got up at 6 AM to take the kids to swim lessons...the house was quiet, coffee was brewing and I wanted to relax on the deck so bad with coffee and a smoke to start my day. Of coarse we don't have any in the house...thank goodness!!!
Of coarse my mind goes there....if I could just sit on the deck with a smoke and relax....I would be in a much better mood. I won't do it.........it feels too good now when I go to the gym as a non-smoker....I am not giving that up for a stupid smoke. I just hate how irritable I am right now......my poor kids...they must think their mom is a nutcase! So......I am going to buy two new wicker chairs for the deck....they are on sale and in just two weeks my husband and I have probably saved some $140.00 not smoking! So it is my treat! Not to mention....I am not having my usual evening glass of wine as much so we are saving there as well.
I think I remember reading many people trip up in the third week of quitting. The gum is definitely keeping me from doing that.......I know I am still physically addicted and still getting the nicotine from the gum but I don't think I knew just how emotionally addicted I was. I had given up years ago smoking inside, or in the car or in public really......but boy did I smoke a lot at home on the deck or in the garage.
I hope everyone elses day is going better than mine is today! I wish I could just crawl in bed and sleep until tomorrow!
quit 7 : Day 15 39 year old mom of 4 : 24 year smoker 20-30 a day.