I just joined this site as a member today, but reading the posts over the last week has really helped me get to this point. My quit date was initially June 17, but I had a lapse on June 19. I took 3 drags and ended up getting really ill. (I am doing this cold turkey.)I had assumed that the vomitting would keep me from having any cravings, but alas, no such luck.
I am so appreciative of everyone sharing their advice and stories and support. I had thought this would be easy since I only smoked 5-10 cigarettes a day off and on for the last 5 years (it got me through some really rough years-including law school as a single mom with 4 kids). I figured that since I didn't smoke too much for too long I could handle this with ease; apparently nicotine does not work that way.
I do not want to smoke any more. The cravings are unusually strong today. Nothing wrong, nothing bad, nothing happening that would instigate the cravings, but they are there and it's taking a lot to avoid succumbing to the desires. I have so many reasons I don't want to smoke, but that nagging pull in my chest creating a tingling desire that travels to the roof of my mouth and into my fingertips trying to trick me into thinking I would enjoy it. . . Am I a big baby for having such a hard time in these circumstances?