On Day 7 thanks to this site

I just joined this site as a member today, but reading the posts over the last week has really helped me get to this point. My quit date was initially June 17, but I had a lapse on June 19. I took 3 drags and ended up getting really ill. (I am doing this cold turkey.)I had assumed that the vomitting would keep me from having any cravings, but alas, no such luck.

I am so appreciative of everyone sharing their advice and stories and support. I had thought this would be easy since I only smoked 5-10 cigarettes a day off and on for the last 5 years (it got me through some really rough years-including law school as a single mom with 4 kids). I figured that since I didn't smoke too much for too long I could handle this with ease; apparently nicotine does not work that way.

I do not want to smoke any more. The cravings are unusually strong today. Nothing wrong, nothing bad, nothing happening that would instigate the cravings, but they are there and it's taking a lot to avoid succumbing to the desires. I have so many reasons I don't want to smoke, but that nagging pull in my chest creating a tingling desire that travels to the roof of my mouth and into my fingertips trying to trick me into thinking I would enjoy it. . . Am I a big baby for having such a hard time in these circumstances?

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  • Hi Determined,

    Welcome & well done on your quit so far.

    Rest assured you are not alone hun & neither are you a baby, we've all been there. Try whyquit.com - has SO much info & will make it all easier to understand.

    Others will be along soon with more help & info for you.

    Keep strong, you can do it :D

    Love Gaynor xxx

  • I am actually back to day 0

    I had to see my ex-boyfriend earlier this evening (the man who broke my heart so badly 6 months ago that I actually bruised my eyelids from crying so hard the night he broke up with me) and I had a cigarette afterwards. I feel disappointed and irritated more with having that darn one cigarette than I do with my run-in with him. I knew I was going to have to see him, but I didn't think it would actually bug me at all. Umm, perhaps I need to work on some denial issues. Anyways, I will work my way back to day 7 again. UGGG I am SO frustrated!!!!

  • Hi Determined :D

    Welcome to the forum and well done on the decision to quit possibly one of the most important you will ever make and you will be losing nothing but you will regain control of your life and that has to be good

    You will find all the help and support you need on here as we all help each other just like a family we are here for you every step of the way cheering the good days and sympathiseing with the bad but the good far outweigh the bad

    Read the posts on here you will find a lot of tips and advice and in the signatures of a lot you will find links to other sites just click on them Here are 2 I find very good to start you off whyquit.com and woofmang.com Read, read and then read some more as the more you read and learn about why you smoked and about your addiction the easier your quit will be

    Well done on day 7 that's great hang in there OK sorry the craveings are strong today if you click on the links they will help you to know how to fight them

    No You're not a baby for feeling as you do, it doesn't matter how much or how little we smoked we still have to go through this,it's the only way to fight the Nico :eek: Demons and come out the other side

    I've just read your second post, sorry to hear you had a fag [but it happens sometimes] after a run in with your ex but glad you're more upset about that fag than the run in with him it will make you stronger as you carry on with the quit

    Post often to let us know how you're doing, to rant, rave have a moan whatever you like pretty much anything goes on here OK

    Best Wishes

    Marg xxxxxxxx

  • Hi Determined,

    It's done now hun, don't beat yourself up over it. You recognise that you did not enjoy & it made you feel bad. That will help you next time so that there WON'T be a next time, get it !!!!!

    Keep strong.

    Love Gaynor xxxx

  • Hi Determined

    Sorry you had a relapse, I can tell you're annoyed as it's put you back a bit :(

    So now you have a choice - continue to smoke or quit. If you really do want to quit, it might help to write down your reasons to carry about with you. You are NOT a baby for struggling, this is a major drug addiction we're getting over, quitting isn't easy but neither is it impossible.

    Marg has given you some great links - read, read, read. I go to Why Quit when I get a craving and watch one of the videos. I do also like my plastic drinking straw, it replaces the hand to mouth and breathing thing but with no chemicals or extra calories.

    Just some ideas, I hope you find what will help you though, believe me I'm on day 21 now and it's soooooo worth it. A few weeks/months of struggling with quitting is preferable to being treated for a smoking related disease!

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