So here is my story.
I became ill with a viral illness 5 days ago, and have not smoked whilst feeling ill.
The thought never really crossed my mind, and when it did, I just felt even worse.
So my mother said to me "You may as well stop smoking now, seeing as you've not done it for 4 days". I didn't know whether I wanted to do it or not.
To be honest, I'm still not sure whether to do it now.
I think I want to.
But my dad doesn't get it. He doesn't understand why I feel grumpy and irritated. He doesn't get why I have such a short temper.
He thinks it's easy. He's never smoked in his life, so he will never understand it.
How am I meant to do it when I have someone winding me up, thinking it's easy when it's obviously not.
I've been smoking for 7-8 years. Not a massive amount of time.
It's also making me feel ill. It's given me a terrible tickly throat and I'm coughing up so much rubbish.
So yeah, there is my story.
Right now, I want a fag. I think that I need one.
I've got lollipops, maybe they will help.