I know what the answer probably is but I think I thought I could just socially smoke and I bought 10 cigs yesterday and actually lit 6 (!) but only actually had a few drags of each one and put them out. Then because I had 4 left in the pack, although I haven't been bothered all day, I have just lit up one more and had about half of it before putting it out. I've felt really down today and thought it would cheer me up. Obviously it didn't. I was quite poorly during my first few weeks of abstinence, i.e had a really sore throat and tummy problems. I'm thinking that I hopefully won't have to go through this again so I'm wondering if because it is a lapse rather than a relapse I can take this as a learned experience. It would have been 7 weeks on Saturday and I don't want to waste those weeks.
I feel really ashamed now but glad that I have just snapped the other 3 in the packet in half and really have no desire to smoke so that has got to be a good sign hasn't it!
Anyway I would welcome your thoughts,